.on long hours infront of mac.

Beb had suggested this new online fashion dress up site. "looklet.com" and Yes I got hooked and made 8 sets in just an hour.. Compared to polyvore.com the site gives the user a model to choose from and have a magazine type outcome..it works for me coz i can't take pictures of myself and blog on chictopia.com..well it adds up to my delight having new sites of this kind..another enticing activity on the web...to view my account "fashionistanurse" 

 

.on choosing the road less traveled.(dateless)

I'm getting to know this guy through text..i was hesitant at first 'cause i find the process cheesy, being a WYSIWIG -type of girl I'm not good in not showing the true me..I don't want him to think that I am putting my best foot forward .. yet it seems like ganun tlga pag first chat you have to  sell yourself and let the true you be unveiled when you meet in person na...

on the other hand I'm losing an old fire..it's been a year that i'm trying to work things out with him yet even in the fling level is hard to maintain.. communicating with him is like always a first time encounter..super low rate of relationship growth. -eff* waste of time

if there's one relationship that i am proud of it would be with lil bro..we went from lil bro-babe-steady-lil bro again yet things are always cool with us..a lot of room to grow especially when we get to live in the same country soon..nothing beats the good old ym-ming tool to keep the friendship burning...

i am doomed for  weeks i've been pressuring myself on getting a date for my bestfriend's birthday party yet it seems like i won't have one..i'm not even excited anymore..*phew*

.on keeping good old friends.

it was super hot this afternoon it felt like 99 degrees..well as planned i need to accomplish some stuff..luckily i managed to go to my aunt's office and had my NCLEX forms printed out.. 

today was fun..my cousin,her bf,and my cuz-in-law went to visit me..pahangin lang sa garage..heheh! got another evening visit from ate nary during nighttime.. and lastly my bestfriend Marco was in town and we had a midnight coffee chat.. these are the biglaan stuff that i like..steady lang! knowing that i do have friends who'm i can be with everytime despite me being single..ahahaha!

was "youtube-ing" awhile ago and suggested some songs to bez Deng..her songs : 

1.Roll the credits

2.Sooner or later

songs i liked:

1.Strawberry swing

2.New perspective

songs for ate nary:

1.Gravity

.on the day before my mens.

wah!i had another encounter with my temptations..after the weekend that he hasn't been replying my textmessages he just said "musta?" and things are back the way they were...what sucks is that everything is just good for a day..the next day i texted him he didn't reply again..hay! nakakaloka.. hinde ata ako tatagal sa ganitong set up.. susuko na tlga ako ..nakakasira na ng ulo...hay y can't i just find one serious guy whom i can share my life with hinde ba tlga pwede sha nalang??? nakakapagod na sayang sa time and effort.. kase alam ko naman na walang patutumhuhan eto... hay gusto kona tlga lumayo..y parang nahihirapan ako i own ang buhay ko feeling ko robot ako na pinapalitana nalang ng battery pag nawawalan na ng energy gumalaw..shet! I know the least i want from him is THAT..pero pano kung yun lang maoffer nya do i have to accept that offer instead or magwait nalang ako ng masdeserve ko..hay masaya pa ba ako sa kanya?or he's just an old ghost haunting me..? Ayaw kona!!! hay kelangan kona tlga anindigan na tama na kalokohan..enough is enogh! i need to let go and move on!!!! hay itutulog kona eto...

.on road mapping my life.

I had another interview @ SLMC yesterday and i was thrown with newly encountered questions. It actually bothered me a lot after I left the conference room. Well I'm not confident that I will get the job, but seriously speaking I don't know if I do want that job. Well point to consider is that it isn't a Nursing related job the only advantage is that it's a Hospital- one of the world's best hospital.

Oh well! I guess yesterday was a wake u call for me since I have been procrastinating my NCLEX applications and other nursing stuff. Pressure pressure pressure. The last quarter of the year 2009 is near and I am far from my goals. Now is the time to act. I am guilty of all the weekend gimmicks that has been happening for the past 4 weekends already..yikes!!!

Goals for SEPTEMBER *3 weeks*:
1. Submit PHC form
2. Update resume
3. Finish reading Saunders: Chapter 8-11

Goals for OCTOBER:
1. Get Nursing License
2. Send application to the BON of Vermont
3. Apply for CES
4. Finish reading Saunders:Chapter 12-14

Goals for NOVEMBER:
-

Goals for DECEMBER:
1. Family Celebration
2. My 25th Birthday

"NO MORE DETOURS,IT'S TIME TO STICK TO THE PLAN"

.on my new layout.

i'm back with a new template.. i feel like i need to get back on my blog and speak out my feelings and insights again through writing...the only option where i can truly say what i feel..

yesterday i was so down..i have to blame it on PMS..but it is also only the time of the month that i become contemplative on how i am handling my life..it was also the 1st day of -BER months..4 months to go before the year ends..

after knowing that i passed the Nursing licensure exam brings all the worries and anxiety back..What to do next? well i have plans of getting a job, taking the NCLEX, getting back on online business, attending trainings and seminars.. YET it has been a month and i haven't started on anything. It's just so frustrating when plans aren't going smoothly.*sighs*

i cried myself to sleep lastnight..i felt alone and untaken cared of..self-pitying ..i even texted the wrong person regarding all my dramas.. it made me feel worse coz he didn't replied..another slap on my face..

i just hope September will be a good busy month for me..I'll be praying harder for that to happen.Prayers are my best ally.