.on choosing the road less traveled.(dateless)

I'm getting to know this guy through text..i was hesitant at first 'cause i find the process cheesy, being a WYSIWIG -type of girl I'm not good in not showing the true me..I don't want him to think that I am putting my best foot forward .. yet it seems like ganun tlga pag first chat you have to  sell yourself and let the true you be unveiled when you meet in person na...

on the other hand I'm losing an old fire..it's been a year that i'm trying to work things out with him yet even in the fling level is hard to maintain.. communicating with him is like always a first time encounter..super low rate of relationship growth. -eff* waste of time

if there's one relationship that i am proud of it would be with lil bro..we went from lil bro-babe-steady-lil bro again yet things are always cool with us..a lot of room to grow especially when we get to live in the same country soon..nothing beats the good old ym-ming tool to keep the friendship burning...

i am doomed for  weeks i've been pressuring myself on getting a date for my bestfriend's birthday party yet it seems like i won't have one..i'm not even excited anymore..*phew*