Rian Ruiz - 26 years!

I am diverse,versatile,well-rounded,goal oriented and creative woman. I took up Business Administration major in Computer Applications at De LaSalle College of St.Benilde.During my college days I opened my small online shop selling pre-owned items and eventually I made my own accessories like flower brooches,layered necklaces, stylish headbands and other trendy accessories. It was my goal to use my skills in web development and my passion for fashion that brought me to become an entrepreneur at that time.I also became a blogger and get to contribute for www.stealthatlook.com (www.stealthatlook.multiply.com) regarding fab finds:a list of local online shops, during the start of multiply.com's site as a platform for fashion online market in the country. After college I went to New York for a vacation and it opened a wider interest for me about western culture. I went back to Manila to pursue my goal to serve others and so I enrolled to a Nursing course.Photo editing has been one of my interest also; editing friend's set cards,head shots and portfolios.I design invitations for my friend's parties and make creative photo gift tags during holiday's gift giving or during special events.I wanted to make other people feel special and surprising them with unique gifts made them appreciate the present more. I became a second courser while I part-time as a Barista for Starbucks Philippines. That experience widen my other network,friends and build my confidence in dealing with different people from different walks of life.I also get to work for a Fashion Show as a Stylist with a Carnival Theme which was organized by friends who are starting a Modeling Agency. I graduated and passed the Nursing board exams in 2009. From then on I worked as an Employee Health Clinic Nurse at St.Luke's Medical Center.I became part of their Employee and Labor relations department engaged in presenting Wellness Activities,Summer Outings,Sports Feast and other Company Events.That job experience gained me more awareness in wellness- participating on yoga classes and aerobic exercices.Now I jog/run, do boxing trainings, yoga, and maintain being fit.Presently I am a part-time wedding coordinator, online shop entrepreneur, and reviewing for upcoming exams for Nursing. I am always online and in constant lookout for trends/fashion report locally and internationally. I get to attend fashion shows during Philippine Fashion week and other Trunk Show Events in New York aswell. I have the desire to discover what life has to offer,having a positive outlook in life and in continuous search for more challenges and experiences where I can impart my knowledge,skills and passion to others.It has always been a dream for me to work for Summit Media and now that "The Mall.ph" via "stylebible.ph" has been a success, it made me more motivated being part of your team sharing my background in web development, my love for fashion, skills in customer service, my love for fashion, enthusiasm in styling and wide range of contacts from Fashion,Medical,Hotels,Business and Events Industry.Those are my personal qualities, experiences and journey that I hoped would qualify me for the Editorial Assistant position in your company.

Reality Check 2011

It's June already time flies so fast.. I am stuck at home due to my "eye condition" now my right eye is infected aswell (huhuu!) I dunno if my eyes are just sick and tired of seeing the house 'coz whenever I'm out it's getting better! Crazy medical condition! Anyways I just want to make a reality check.. Looking on how things went from deciding to go back here in the Philippines and starting on my own,trying to get my independence.

Here's a run-down of what life has been :)

*challenging*

Febuary 2011

• Get to spend time with hubby,his fam and friends.
• Visit St.Luke's family.
• Look for Nursing trainings and seminars.
• Wedding preparation for client:LOT!

March 2011

• Attend IVT training @ PHC. (completed)
• Exam and interview for Staff Nurse position @ SLMC. (failed)
• Got a part-time job back @EHC.
• Challenges with daily operation of EHC (dame pasaway na employees talaga)

April 2011

• Summer vacation with hubby and friends @ Ilocos.
• Job Hunt! Job proposal! Business proposal!
• Dramahan with Ate Pia and Nary.(I'm fed up na!)
• Got my Student Driver's Permit. :)
• Pass resume direct to Marikina Valley Medical Center.
• Vacation leave ni hubby! :)
• Bonding with cuz Bless and friends.
• Launch Fashionista Nurse online store @ Multiply.com
• Jogging/work-out

June 2011

• Pass resume online thru Jobstreet.com
• Reunion with Santos family.
• Hangout with Gelo's family and relatives.
• Jogging!
• Learn how to drive (sana)
• Get a new job!

So far that's how things has been.. Hay i'm in so much pressure right now I'm broke and unemployed...:( Emotional Rollercoaster.The only thing that's satble is my LOVE LIFE . :)

March - April 2011

dear Everyone,

March has been a busy month for me. Adapting being back to my Manila life. Living eachday with my beloved hubby, catching up on missed bonding with our friends and families. I managed to complete my IV training , working on our client's wedding preparations and pursuing job opportunity as a staff nurse @ SLMCQC ( which didn't pushed through). Instead I was offered to relieve my previous manager's numerical @ EHC.

April- I was back @ SLMCQC-EHC as a company nurse. Back to my Monday to Friday 8-5 job. It was for a month's contract. A lot of issues, negative vibes and irate & arrogant people encountered every week (grrr!). Yet I get to spend more time with Sweetness (morning breakfast,3 o'clock visit,praying in the chapel,strolling around the hospital). Bonding with Shel got shortened due to her LapCholecystectomy :(. Trained a new nurse, Maine and my OJT's. As usual kulitan with the HE doctors was one of the highlight. I also get to attend SLMC's 2011 summer outing (what an experience- 1st time to use the O2 tank,naging professional first aider ako bigla). Ended the month with Holy Week - experienced Bisita Iglesia with the Belano's.

May started with a Northbound Adventure with Sweetness, my sister & friends. We went to visit Ilocos. It was super hooooot! Yet it was exciting going back to my grandparent's hometown. We were still small when we last visited and it was still with my parents and relatives. It was a long awaited out of town vacation with Sweetness. (Super tired pero enjoy at busog sobra). Pictures to be posted soon @ sweetnessislove.

.sadness on Vday.

I don't know pero i really felt sad after seeing pictures of friends holding their flowers.chocolates,gifts from their special someone. Then it hits me that it's Feb.15 morning already and not a single rose insight. Did Valentine's day just passed. I was at the same location where my bf was for the entire day but get to spend it more with other single friends since he was on duty. I was being the same old me-feeling single waiting for something to happen, just helping other friends buy roses, eating other people's cake,being treated by others. Ok, I admit that I went all the way from NY just to spend Valentine's day with my sweetness. I was just dissappointed that he just let it pass and dwell on his problems at work. Yes, I am being immature and selfish right now. I'm a bad gf who doesn't deserve a rose on Valentine's day!

.close to giving up.

I woke up checking my phone and still got no reply/text from my boyfriend. I was thinking that he has no load or something's wrong with his phone again. So I just send a text message saying "i miss you,ope ur fine, thanks for not replying". But then now he replied "Bakit galit? busy hubby. :(". Containing my disappointment i delayed my reply. Then he text again "galit ba wife ko?"..then after coming up with a neutral reply (since I don't wanna sound overly pissed) "im not mad.nanibago lang ako na hindi mo sinabe kung nasan kana.sorry naistorbo kita"..he replied.."sorry busy lang hubby now"..(then suddenly I felt teary eyed)I guess I wasn't mad but I felt unimportant and disappointed. So I just decided to shut my globe phone. (I just feel tired checking my phone for nothing). Actually I'm tired of my life's setup!And my relationship with him is not helping. :(

.reality check.

It's been awhile since the last time I blogged here. This used to be my "vent blog", I just let out my ideas, feelings, experience and just share anything without being judge by anyone. It's been a month and a half since I left Manila. Resigning from my job-leaving my bestfriends-leaving my boyfriend-leaving my crazy life. Being with my parents and sister here in NY is like living my younger days. Staying at home, trying to please the family eachday, doing household chores, going shopping. Yet the more I feel useless and stuck up. I don't know if I can ever stand on my own feet.

.first kiss.

Last night was the 3rd batch of my despedida party. This time I get to celebrate with my new friends from SLMC (from Admissions,CAD,IMD,Pharmacy,Wellness). Another videoke party , wherein most of the songs were dedicated to me and sweetness. Everyone was crazy-drunk . We were all singing our hearts out and dancing aswell, nakakaloka tlga. Most of the evening I was seated beside sweetness. He was being super caring (well not letting me drink shots and stopping me from "yo"). Then when we had to drive ciarky home, we were seated in the backseat of Carlo's car, then he suddenly became cuddly and being sweet to me - holding my hand. *blush* From that time I know that this was the time that I have been waiting for, for us to finally just express our feelings for eachother. Back to my house where everyone was wasted already and was all laying on the couch. So me and sweetness just had a little chit chat and bonded more playing our iTouch. At 3am the girls woke up already and was sober to head home. So it's just me,sweetness and his friend left in the living room. His friend was really knocked down, and so we had the entire night for eachother. He was experiencing insomia so i had to be awak e and join him. Then there was MAGIC :) he started pinching my nose and becoming flirty, we were cuddling and I went to lay on his lap, when he suddenly leaned towards me and gave me a passionate kiss *kilig super* it went on for several times.. and it felt so good! I was feeling verry happy and just wanted to stay on his arms the entire time. We got sleepy around 5am just when the sun started to arise. *perfect moment*.

Now I am feeling elated! I just can't help but smile by just the thought of him kissing me. It may sound cheesy yet I miss him already. I think I love him already. I'm so thankful that he turned around and made a move.

I only have a week to spend time with him.. I'm really hoping that he'll consider having a long distance relationship with me..( I maybe demanding and selfish, but right now I can see myself spending the rest of my life with him ) *all smiles*

I love you Angelo Belano!!!

.Another crazy-drama filled week.

I started the week with hangover from my weekend gimiks. I had dinner with my HS barkada to celebrate Joyce' success in passing the Med. board exam. We get to update eachother and had the usual asaran- laughtrip over beer. (hehehe namiss ko sila mga kumare na tlga) then I get to hangout with Gelo (grabe I even fetched him at work) well t'was the first time that we get to spend time together alone. Ofcourse I was happy to be with him and kilig. Yet I have to send him home 'coz I was meeting other group of friends @ The Reserve. So down to my next stop. Joy and friends were there and surprisingly Aid followede and requested me to stay with him since he didn't wanna go home yet and wanted to have some after gimik breakfast pa.Unexpectedly I bumped into my cousin and her friends so the night was extended til 5am. They were drunk already and even thought that I was dating Aid (funny talaga! walang ka idea idea si Aid about what they were thinking) Ohwell good thing he didn't mind and just enjoyed our time together.

And so Monday came I got colds and wasn't feeling well. I took a sick leave came Tuesday.(wawang bata) .Neways came Thursday and we (my officemates) had a girl's night out @ Off the Grill , Tomas Morato. Yet another drama came up when Gelo was messing up my night and started to disappoint me (naiinis kase ako everytime na tinatabla nya ako, hindi ko alam if intentionally ba ito or manhid lang tlga sya and doesn't care about how I would feel) He even pushed the limit and tested my patience of telling me that he would pick me up but he was bringing his officemate with us aswell ( hay! should I just accept the fact na he didn't thought it would be a big deal for me and i won't mind at all) So I got pissed and even more hurt. (I was so disappointed with him talaga) I wanted to talk it over after the Healing Mass Event that I had to attend to , yet we never get a chance. Until today I haven't heard from him. His phone was turned off since yesterday (hmp! ayoko na sana isipen. ayoko na sana i-big deal. pero hinde pa din ako/kame ok .It still bothers me kase I care about our friendship so much). I never expected na it would reach upto this point na magkakaganito ako with him. I hate to admit na we're not Ok anymore, sobrang nakakabother. I only have until Thursday to stay at St.Lukes and this adds to the pressure I am feeling. Nakakaloka sobra! I don't really know what to do, the waiting is killing me. (i miss him na!)

Before I forget, I get the chance to party with my UMAK friends. We partied @ Cafe 80's! (grabe we got super drunk over tequila shots) to the point that Jojo had to give me taxi fare 'coz he cant drive me home to QC anymore. (hehehhe lasing si Papi) I had fun and I felt so touched that they really felt sad that I was leaving soon. Overjoyed talaga 'coz Cates even called to say hi and try to be present kahet phone patched lang..(heheh! They'll always be like a family to me na). I'm so blessed to have you guys in my life!

Another week has ended. I just hope things between me and Gelo will be fixed na. A lot of paties coming and I'm bound to bid farewell to EHC this Thursday na. (awww! 9 months din ako nagstay and I'm still gonna work hard up to the end) I'm having mixed emotions na and I know I'm about to breakdown soon (*deep sigh*)

One more thing, Bezy's birthday invite was done already and this is what we came up with. I'm happy that I get to do it for her and she actually wanted me to do it for her most awaited 26th birthday celebration!!!

.1 month to go before I say goodbye.

Another turning point in my life. I decided to quit my job and pursue my American dream. 30 days left to finish whatever that needs to be done. Resignation requirements, NCLEX application, Closure with special friends, Despedida parties, Birthday celebration of Ate Pia, Joy and Pao.

A week after "special friend's" discharge and I was hesitant to remain close to him and continue the daily text and call the we had. Well he's not checking on me aswell yet he still visits me in the clinic. [pero I wasn't excited to see him anymore :( ] Wahhh! Yet lastnight I was trying to check if we're still insync and texted him "i hate to admit it yet I miss you na :( ". Upto this moment I get no reply from him. Another (-) negative vibe from him. Wala na tlga eto patutunguhan. The only hope I have is that he'll say something that'll make me feel better and just be humble and just come around..before man lang ako umalis!*wishful thinking*

Hay! This I promise to myself everyweekend will be a PARTY. I need to make good memories and do my signature crazy-once-in-a-lifetime moments with friends!!!! GERA ON!

.crazy hella week.

the week was filled with depression,confussion and exhaustion. . Sunday night was when i got a call from "sweetness" that he's not feeling well and he's going to the E.R. for consult. Surprisingly I was so freaking worried and was checking on him from time to time..(i can't even close my eyes because i was so bothered) ... and so i laylowed because I was afraid to accept that I do have deep feelings for him already (well not that I haven't shared it with others, but this seemed a lot way more than I expected) To my surprise he texted and told me that he'll be going to the clinic since he's been having fever for the past 3 days..to make the long story short..he had Dengue and got admitted. During his confinement i was giving my best effort on comforting him (kinapalan kona muka ko and still visit him everyday) Yun lang hinde ko alam if naapreciate ba nya or naiirita na sya saken (feeling girlfriend kase ako..haaay! ang hirap ng ganito..no commitment) hmmm.. I only have 2 weeks to see him..after that everything will be over. I don't think what we have is bound to last especially on long distance... He's just too numb and afraid to settle... (that's the hardest part that I need to deal with)

:(

.temptation.temptation.

I'm weak! I admit..hmm i guess being not exclusive with sweetness makes me more rebelious in some ways.. I get to hanged out with an old fling - surprisingly it was awesome.. compared to the last time we saw eachother..maybe it's because it's been a long time since we've seen eachother, get to bond with him selling burgers.. haaay! I can't explain it yet it felt good doing something special for him and got appreciated after.. I just can't help but *smile*

wah! I'm a crazy lil' single girl!!!

.simply special.

I am so bading right now. I think I just fall for my close guy friend from work. He does things na nakakaloka..like he extends his time to see me in the morning before I open the clinic.. (2x pa) Well im happy that we get to this level... It's not a bf/gf relationship that's entitled on exclusivity and restrictions. We're just happy that we have eachother - and that matters a lot to me..

.Beb's in town!.

Went to the mall early to meet up with beb Ayeen who was just here last Tuesday and had her flight today na kagad (Saturday). Well we just spent time buying pasalubong.. grabe I did miss her tlga.Ayeen was one of my closest friend during college. Since we're the only few Benildeans who lived up North so we get to meet and hangout often during no-school weekend. Hay those were the days...Now she's off back to Dubai for work!

Until we meet again beb!!!! :)

.on losing my hundred dollar bill.

I woke up early with hopes of going shopping today. I actually had my sister's bf drive me to have my $100 changed to peso.Unfortunately on our way to the grocery I went to check my money yet to my surprise it wasn't in my wallet. (huhuhu!) I am so clueless on where I placed it or if someone has stolen it from me. This incident is so disheartening 'coz I just realized that (1) it was from my dad before he left for NY ; (2) i'm broke and i need it now ; (3) i really need to take care of my possessions ...(huhuhu!)

Sweetness is still sick, I'm really worried about him coz he's been a workaholic and needed a tonsilectomy soon , yet he's pasaway and ignoring his medical condition. (errr!) :(

I just stayed home this Saturday just went online and accomplished my CGFNS application and looked for prospective schools in NY for my Masteral Degree. (in case I go for Plan A) haaay!!!

.i hate goodbyes.

Tomorrow is the day when Cate flies to US for good.It saddens me a lot since for a long time me and Cate has been very close like sisters.She has always been there for me through good or bad, a lot of events in our lives were shared together.(after duty gimiks,sleepover,out of town,roadtrips,kalokohan,kabaliwan) I will trully treasure those and hope to make more memories together when I finally go to the US aswell.Thank you for the friendship!


Until we meet again sweetie *Good Luck and Take Care*

.no work Wednesday.

It's a feel good Wednesday having an off in the middle of the week is such a relaxing moment..Well today is the Inauguration of the new Philippine President NOYNOY Aquino..which I have watched on the television earlier today!

Anyways, 2 weeks ago my hs bestfriend Deng left for UK for a carreer opportunity, 'twas so sad coz' we didn't have the time to bid farewell with eachother- the friendship suddenly was put to a hold .. i'm sure she had some reasons why she chose not to say goodbye to me nor with our barkada.. I just hope I'll get the chance to see her again before each one of us settles in a different country.
More to my grief sweetie Cates is leaving for US this Sunday already, it hits me again coz all of my female and male bestfriends are far away... Beb ayeen is in Dubai, Bez Jeremy is in Texas, and my family is in NY...wah! I can't really take it anymore.. I really am planning to go to US aswell ..haaay!!! ang hirap ng feeling,sometimes you just feel alone! :( boohoo..

I'm beginning to think if there are still some things that I have to finish here in PH..maybe I'd just let go of those and just start anew in a different environment,in a different place,in a different country.

I'm 25 seeking for a carreer ,for a serious relationship and for satisfaction. This I challenge myself that in the days to come I will take responsibility on fixing my life and leading to to a path of a greener pasteur. :) *so help me God*

.updating life.

A week after my Cebu-Bohol vacation..

I'm on the verge of making new plans for my life, making life changing decision needs to start now. I just realized that it's time for me to act now. Be Productive and Not waste time!!!

(test post)

.until you come back - rom.

Until U Come Back lyrics found at elyricsworld.com

.history repeats itself. it's crazy!

After 2 days of not getting any messages from "the doctor" he suddenly did awhile ago after i celebrated mass, at first i was hesitant to reply..yet i remained casual and did reply. Everything was going fine until he asked if i wanted to join him for coffee - and so i said yes! yet he wanted to delay the time like past 9pm. (not again,im getting tired of this setup! ang dame nyang arte!) to my ines - i asked for advice from "Mr.friendly" infairness he made me stand firm of not letting him win this time..and just decline his offer. As expected "the doctor" had a violent reaction..(na ayaw ko lang daw,minsan nanga lang daw kme magkita) haay! he's making me go crazy....i just can't deal with someone who has a very low EQ!!!

So i just ended up talking to "Mr.friendly" to calm me down from my ines.. that the focus of our conversation went to his real identity.. he's bisexual!!!! (my jaw dropped when he confessed !)not making it such a big deal i managed to tell him na if what makes him happy i'll still acccept him as a friend..

Seriously, i'm still in shock! i'm going crazy na.. this is too much to handle for a Sunday night...looking back in my past - nangyare na eto before with another guy friend of mine..
ano bah? baket ang lapit ko sa mga BI???? at sa mga walang kwentang mga Lalake???

.my 3rd MISTAKE.

ok I take it back I ain't falling for "the doctor"another big mistake..he's been aloof and unreachable..it sucks...let's just drop it!

on the other hand... "the Mr.friendly" is being super nice..well he's always there when i needed someone to comfort me..and he just gets me when I am down in despair..hmmm!l et's just leave it that way muna..I won't over analyze things... I'm just smiling now :)