.history repeats itself. it's crazy!

After 2 days of not getting any messages from "the doctor" he suddenly did awhile ago after i celebrated mass, at first i was hesitant to reply..yet i remained casual and did reply. Everything was going fine until he asked if i wanted to join him for coffee - and so i said yes! yet he wanted to delay the time like past 9pm. (not again,im getting tired of this setup! ang dame nyang arte!) to my ines - i asked for advice from "Mr.friendly" infairness he made me stand firm of not letting him win this time..and just decline his offer. As expected "the doctor" had a violent reaction..(na ayaw ko lang daw,minsan nanga lang daw kme magkita) haay! he's making me go crazy....i just can't deal with someone who has a very low EQ!!!

So i just ended up talking to "Mr.friendly" to calm me down from my ines.. that the focus of our conversation went to his real identity.. he's bisexual!!!! (my jaw dropped when he confessed !)not making it such a big deal i managed to tell him na if what makes him happy i'll still acccept him as a friend..

Seriously, i'm still in shock! i'm going crazy na.. this is too much to handle for a Sunday night...looking back in my past - nangyare na eto before with another guy friend of mine..
ano bah? baket ang lapit ko sa mga BI???? at sa mga walang kwentang mga Lalake???

.my 3rd MISTAKE.

ok I take it back I ain't falling for "the doctor"another big mistake..he's been aloof and unreachable..it sucks...let's just drop it!

on the other hand... "the Mr.friendly" is being super nice..well he's always there when i needed someone to comfort me..and he just gets me when I am down in despair..hmmm!l et's just leave it that way muna..I won't over analyze things... I'm just smiling now :)

.on meeting the ONE.

"There is no remedy for love but to love more"

- Henry David Thorean

Coming from nowhere a friend of mine texted me and asked me if it is ok to give out my number to a guy..since I don't have any love life , she wanted to match me with this guy who's in the same field as I am.. At first I was hesitant 'coz I had friends before match making me with unmatched friends of theirs..So I had to make sure first so I asked for his FB account first, just to give me an idea how he looked like and his interests aswell..

The next day I did checked his page, he looked fine naman..he had braces,chinky eyes and great big smile..Snd so I gave my friend the permission to officially "bugaw" me.. To make things faster I added him at FB..(ahahah atat!)

At work I was waiting for his text...and then he did.. (Wednesday) He greeted a simple Gudmorning! --- and then we've been texting everyday..then decided to meet up (Friday) at Starbucks Tomas Morato, then everything seemd fine I was really comfortable with him..that we started flirting with eachother..(kulitan lang!) then we headed at home and just booze up there..Twas a crazy-naughty-fun date.. hmm! I do like him na ata..ahahah! I just can't wait to see him again.. (awwww! kilig)

.on my circus day.

Today was crazy.. started the day with me still feeling antok..yet i need to get up and be ready for work... my body felt good yet I instantly felt my muscles aching,,due to lastnyt's 2-hour yoga..(nabatak ang buto buto ko)

I was energetic to work..was able to accomplish a lot..had lots of laughing moments with my officemates and dotors.. yet sabe nga nila mahirap magisng super saya,kase may kapalit na sadness..

To make the long story short - imediately I went home as soon as the clock striked 5pm..and then suddenly my hapiness is over.. I got a call from my boss questioning why I got home early..(freaking BV!!!)errr!...until now i can't get over it! gudluck nalang saken tom! I might facing a lot of negative vibes tom for sure..haaay!*sighs* : (2nd time na nasabon ako sa work!)

On the other hand si "mr.friendly" layed down his cards- na he's still seeing his ex pa pala even before he started to become uber friendly to me..eto pa even told me na they'll be dating the entire day... well it's beginning to weird me out coz he still calls me and update me his whereabouts..i dunno y? (seriously nakakaloka yet nasasanay na ako and it scares me kse alam ko he likes his ex padin) hinde ko alam ano intentions nya saken,seriously!?

Bute nalang despite my crazy day "the doctor" texted me na..hihihi! the entire day we were texting..*kilig* i added him sa FB na din..not bad looking naman..I'm really looking forward of seeing him in person na..wah!i need to fix up..super exhausted nako..not a gud thing for a 1st date, which is tom na ata..oh no...(next week nalang!)

it's *FFING HOT ..kairita!bummer tlga...

.on a crazy yoga day.

I'm like planted on my bed..lying and just thinking..

1st yoga session was a lot of fun!I felt comfortable naman doing it within a group..(kailang lang when *he's* staring at me as i do odd poses..rawwrr!)next Thursday ulit..:P

new found friend is being uberly open and told me all about his happiness since his ex has been texting him again..(*sighs* sabe konga he just sees me as a friend..i hate guys like him..pero bute nalang pinaloadan nya ako..hihi! gudfriend naman sha..pwede na!)

my hs friend is matchmaking me with a medical intern - saw his pics at FB and Yeah! he's my type of guy.. ahahha!GO..this could be fun! i think i do deserve more "the doctor" than the "mr.friendly"...i just wish he'd text me soon...

.on hotness Monday.

my horoscope states that I'll be having a lovelife soon..could it be true this time?well there's only one person who seems to be possibly falling to that category (ahahah!NOT! ah ewan) This new guy still calls and utter messages like gudnyt-gudnoon, and calls up eveytime he heads home after work.. we'll see it's week 2 now.. :) going strong! go go go!

Still confused on how to organize my carreer, d ko parin alam gagawen ko..there are some big decisions that I am just waiting for "the final judgement" I just hope all goes well and I won't get terminated or suffer any tragic consequence for a mistake I have done. (this I lift up to you Lord)

Steady Monday! sleeepy as ever!! ZZZzzz....
*grooveshark.com rocks!!!*

.on always being the friend never the girlfriend.

Sunday - I woke up late since I got home past 3am already.As usual I was too lazy to move and start the day ..I stayed in bed and surfed the net - surprisingly all of my best guyfriends are online and we got to catch up with eachother through ym, fb chat and skype (awww they are all being sweet *love 'em tlga*). Well they have always been my kuya.instant bf.man figure.friend.They really help me in times of emo moments or when I just need affirmation coming from a guy.ahahahha!!!

Celebrated mass at Christ the King SVD presided by Fr. Arlo with my bestfriend Deng. We were catching up as the mass went on and she finally spilled the beans that she's leaving for UK soon.In an instant I felt a hole in my chest, this will be the first time that we will be far from eachother(2-year contract). I almost cried because I felt sad of the thought that 2 of my girl bestfriends are leaving and even daddy is going back to NY this Sunday already; well bezy's going to be in the US this entire June.. oh no! my persons are leaving.i don't know what to expect on the months to come... :(

more to my emo - the new guyfriend I was talking about confessed that he still likes his EX.. (oh common! not again..well I think it's better that I have known sooner before I get mislead by all his efforts on texting and calling me everyday - definitely not gonna fall for that!did I?!errr! NO!)

Nevertheless, dinner with Nary and Jazzie @ a Thai resto distracted me from all this sadness.. *sigh*

.on soul searching without losing it.

A rollercoaster week for me..I really feel exhausted starting the week, well fortunately there were a few patients only that went for consultation. Yet being alone in my post makes everything sucky.. Not that I can't manage things on my own - yet it bores me to death working with no one.. And so i ended up whining a lot about the job and thinking of something else to get busy with..but still i have no single idea what to do next. I think I better jot things down to get me started. (ok comercial my best guyfriend just send me his pic topless for the goal of teasing me..RAWR!!!)ok I got lost there for a minute!!(cooling down)

On the other hand my week ended getting my pay.getting my longed for massage.a date.partying with my girls.

*HIGHLIGHTS!*
>new found guy SUN-friend! :)
>new massage place discovered - Body Delight
>new dresses and rompers purchased!
>new acquaintances..

.on updating my blog site.

It's already May 2010.. been so busy with life.. I finally have a job as a nursing admin @ St. Luke's Medical Center Q.C. It's been 5 months already and yeah I manage to survive a new environment and a new job being a nurse. Well im feeling a bit stressed out lately with all the issues at work and life's pressures.. Still I haven't applied for NCLEX nor IELTS. I have been thinking a lot lately on how i wana spend the next 5 years of my life before i turn 30. Well sometimes it crosses my mind that I wanna have a baby already; yet that seems to be impossible since I am still single.Yeah still SINGLE.. it's seems like the longest period of time being love-less, especially now that career is my number one priority for the year..
Anyway enough of these non-sense anxiety related issues of mine..

Talking about my present life.. I'm kilig or should I say I'm happy to get to be friends with a new guy.. He managed to adopt with my stubborness and emo moments and even made an effort on visiting me..(kilig tlga!) I'm not really that into him yet ..well we haven't hangout pa naman, I'm just excited to get to know him better.. I just hope that this won't be another stucked-up relationship.. wherein i always find myself explaining to friends when they ask how I am and the guy ---> "we're not gonna reach to any level than just being friends" just to make them stop wishing for a fairytale ending -well 3 had failed already so I might aswell break the spell and try to work things out this time..I just hope that in some ways he's appreciating my existence the way I do with him..ughhh! I'm really not good in hiding my feelings (kulit mode:ON)...imma keep my fingers crossed and hope to break the spell...

"tomorrow's another day-it's payday Friday- it better be good"