..on hating changing plans

the past few weeks I have been on intense situations..After getting the results of the Course Audit and luckily I PASSED.. I am determined to take the June boards, focused on reviewing for the freaking exam..I had conditioned myself already... yet life isn't perfect and will never be..(i guess)

My sister has been pressuring me to go with her on a US vacation together with other relatives since she doesn't want to go on flight alone... I had doubts because I'll be missing 2 weeks of my review and that'll be a major risk...So I weighed my status.. for some reasons I wanna join them coz I really do wanna see my family and friends in NY... and so I said I will join them...andnot postponing my local board plans I  enrolled for  a review this April ..i am willing to take the risk....

But then after deciding on things..I got  a call from my uncle telling me that he won't allow me to join them this May rather I move my flight after the board exam.. and my dad commented also the same way... WAAAAAAAH!!! I hate it when I have to decide again for the 2nd time...I hate the pressure that they are giving me..for a moment I thinked and got disappointed (nakakawalang gana na) parang I am left with no choice but to change my decision..

well changes means a lot of violent reaction.. and initially my sister got upset and blamed me on why do I have to go on a review this April to June and not postponed the exam on November instead.and other inconsiderate comments!!!. (sometimes I wonder if she's really my sister,she just never understands me) 

ohwell the final decision is that she's going to the US with them by herself and I'll be staying here to not miss any of my review schedule.. (easy to accept if I haven't conditioned myself already on the Pros of leaving)

I just need to wallow and cry it out again.. before things are clear to me...condition myself on another life changing decision...(which is staying here in Manila)

Pros:

• Stay focused on my review
• Bigger chances of passing the NLE
• Make my dad and uncle WIN! on me not joining

Cons:

• I won't see mama,daddy and tin..not until 4-6months from now..
• Cindy my chinese bestfriend will be upset if she knew i won't be going there soon..
• My driking date with leon will be postponed.
• I need to take back all the excitement and news that I'll be leaving on May..
• No more escape and change in the environment..stuck in Manila!

Well, I was really looking forward already on the trip 

and now I have to look forward on something else!!!

Rian isipen mo nalang:

1. Ayeen will be here in Manila on April 11

2. Baka matuloy yung Hong Kong trip on March 28-31

3. May beach plans kayo ni Cates on April 1

4. Your finally single and ready to mingle,enjoy!

5. Review for 2 freaking months might be fun! (grrr)