on My Loneliest Day ;( :

It feels like eachday I have a gray cloud over me..
I never felt so alone til 2day!

How about studying all night for an exam then knowing that you've failed!
Starving yet there's no food to eat ,not even someone cared to share you some!
Inviting friends out - coz all you need is a friend who could cheer you up..
yet they pass on your invitation for some selfish reasons...
Knowing that you have tons of friends yet realizing that none of them will show up
in times when you need them the most...
Felling exhausted and sick and not even getting any "are you ok?" from the people you expect to read your feelings without you telling them..
Going home by yourself riding a cab with no one caring if you'd be home safe!
Tears falling down your cheeks - coz all you can think of is your death day and
wonder if the people whom you've cared so much would even spare a minute to visit your wake...


I really do question my existence and use on other people's lives??! I wonder if I really am a part of their lives.. or just a person whom they know who would always be there on their side in times when they feel ALONE.. I never demand for something grand yet I just can't accept that I am not getting what I deserve...or this is all that I have to receive..?! *sighs*

I miss my family,my sister,my true friends and most especially God.
*crying*