.Another crazy-drama filled week.

I started the week with hangover from my weekend gimiks. I had dinner with my HS barkada to celebrate Joyce' success in passing the Med. board exam. We get to update eachother and had the usual asaran- laughtrip over beer. (hehehe namiss ko sila mga kumare na tlga) then I get to hangout with Gelo (grabe I even fetched him at work) well t'was the first time that we get to spend time together alone. Ofcourse I was happy to be with him and kilig. Yet I have to send him home 'coz I was meeting other group of friends @ The Reserve. So down to my next stop. Joy and friends were there and surprisingly Aid followede and requested me to stay with him since he didn't wanna go home yet and wanted to have some after gimik breakfast pa.Unexpectedly I bumped into my cousin and her friends so the night was extended til 5am. They were drunk already and even thought that I was dating Aid (funny talaga! walang ka idea idea si Aid about what they were thinking) Ohwell good thing he didn't mind and just enjoyed our time together.

And so Monday came I got colds and wasn't feeling well. I took a sick leave came Tuesday.(wawang bata) .Neways came Thursday and we (my officemates) had a girl's night out @ Off the Grill , Tomas Morato. Yet another drama came up when Gelo was messing up my night and started to disappoint me (naiinis kase ako everytime na tinatabla nya ako, hindi ko alam if intentionally ba ito or manhid lang tlga sya and doesn't care about how I would feel) He even pushed the limit and tested my patience of telling me that he would pick me up but he was bringing his officemate with us aswell ( hay! should I just accept the fact na he didn't thought it would be a big deal for me and i won't mind at all) So I got pissed and even more hurt. (I was so disappointed with him talaga) I wanted to talk it over after the Healing Mass Event that I had to attend to , yet we never get a chance. Until today I haven't heard from him. His phone was turned off since yesterday (hmp! ayoko na sana isipen. ayoko na sana i-big deal. pero hinde pa din ako/kame ok .It still bothers me kase I care about our friendship so much). I never expected na it would reach upto this point na magkakaganito ako with him. I hate to admit na we're not Ok anymore, sobrang nakakabother. I only have until Thursday to stay at St.Lukes and this adds to the pressure I am feeling. Nakakaloka sobra! I don't really know what to do, the waiting is killing me. (i miss him na!)

Before I forget, I get the chance to party with my UMAK friends. We partied @ Cafe 80's! (grabe we got super drunk over tequila shots) to the point that Jojo had to give me taxi fare 'coz he cant drive me home to QC anymore. (hehehhe lasing si Papi) I had fun and I felt so touched that they really felt sad that I was leaving soon. Overjoyed talaga 'coz Cates even called to say hi and try to be present kahet phone patched lang..(heheh! They'll always be like a family to me na). I'm so blessed to have you guys in my life!

Another week has ended. I just hope things between me and Gelo will be fixed na. A lot of paties coming and I'm bound to bid farewell to EHC this Thursday na. (awww! 9 months din ako nagstay and I'm still gonna work hard up to the end) I'm having mixed emotions na and I know I'm about to breakdown soon (*deep sigh*)

One more thing, Bezy's birthday invite was done already and this is what we came up with. I'm happy that I get to do it for her and she actually wanted me to do it for her most awaited 26th birthday celebration!!!

.1 month to go before I say goodbye.

Another turning point in my life. I decided to quit my job and pursue my American dream. 30 days left to finish whatever that needs to be done. Resignation requirements, NCLEX application, Closure with special friends, Despedida parties, Birthday celebration of Ate Pia, Joy and Pao.

A week after "special friend's" discharge and I was hesitant to remain close to him and continue the daily text and call the we had. Well he's not checking on me aswell yet he still visits me in the clinic. [pero I wasn't excited to see him anymore :( ] Wahhh! Yet lastnight I was trying to check if we're still insync and texted him "i hate to admit it yet I miss you na :( ". Upto this moment I get no reply from him. Another (-) negative vibe from him. Wala na tlga eto patutunguhan. The only hope I have is that he'll say something that'll make me feel better and just be humble and just come around..before man lang ako umalis!*wishful thinking*

Hay! This I promise to myself everyweekend will be a PARTY. I need to make good memories and do my signature crazy-once-in-a-lifetime moments with friends!!!! GERA ON!

.crazy hella week.

the week was filled with depression,confussion and exhaustion. . Sunday night was when i got a call from "sweetness" that he's not feeling well and he's going to the E.R. for consult. Surprisingly I was so freaking worried and was checking on him from time to time..(i can't even close my eyes because i was so bothered) ... and so i laylowed because I was afraid to accept that I do have deep feelings for him already (well not that I haven't shared it with others, but this seemed a lot way more than I expected) To my surprise he texted and told me that he'll be going to the clinic since he's been having fever for the past 3 days..to make the long story short..he had Dengue and got admitted. During his confinement i was giving my best effort on comforting him (kinapalan kona muka ko and still visit him everyday) Yun lang hinde ko alam if naapreciate ba nya or naiirita na sya saken (feeling girlfriend kase ako..haaay! ang hirap ng ganito..no commitment) hmmm.. I only have 2 weeks to see him..after that everything will be over. I don't think what we have is bound to last especially on long distance... He's just too numb and afraid to settle... (that's the hardest part that I need to deal with)

:(

.temptation.temptation.

I'm weak! I admit..hmm i guess being not exclusive with sweetness makes me more rebelious in some ways.. I get to hanged out with an old fling - surprisingly it was awesome.. compared to the last time we saw eachother..maybe it's because it's been a long time since we've seen eachother, get to bond with him selling burgers.. haaay! I can't explain it yet it felt good doing something special for him and got appreciated after.. I just can't help but *smile*

wah! I'm a crazy lil' single girl!!!

.simply special.

I am so bading right now. I think I just fall for my close guy friend from work. He does things na nakakaloka..like he extends his time to see me in the morning before I open the clinic.. (2x pa) Well im happy that we get to this level... It's not a bf/gf relationship that's entitled on exclusivity and restrictions. We're just happy that we have eachother - and that matters a lot to me..

.Beb's in town!.

Went to the mall early to meet up with beb Ayeen who was just here last Tuesday and had her flight today na kagad (Saturday). Well we just spent time buying pasalubong.. grabe I did miss her tlga.Ayeen was one of my closest friend during college. Since we're the only few Benildeans who lived up North so we get to meet and hangout often during no-school weekend. Hay those were the days...Now she's off back to Dubai for work!

Until we meet again beb!!!! :)

.on losing my hundred dollar bill.

I woke up early with hopes of going shopping today. I actually had my sister's bf drive me to have my $100 changed to peso.Unfortunately on our way to the grocery I went to check my money yet to my surprise it wasn't in my wallet. (huhuhu!) I am so clueless on where I placed it or if someone has stolen it from me. This incident is so disheartening 'coz I just realized that (1) it was from my dad before he left for NY ; (2) i'm broke and i need it now ; (3) i really need to take care of my possessions ...(huhuhu!)

Sweetness is still sick, I'm really worried about him coz he's been a workaholic and needed a tonsilectomy soon , yet he's pasaway and ignoring his medical condition. (errr!) :(

I just stayed home this Saturday just went online and accomplished my CGFNS application and looked for prospective schools in NY for my Masteral Degree. (in case I go for Plan A) haaay!!!