.1 month to go before I say goodbye.

Another turning point in my life. I decided to quit my job and pursue my American dream. 30 days left to finish whatever that needs to be done. Resignation requirements, NCLEX application, Closure with special friends, Despedida parties, Birthday celebration of Ate Pia, Joy and Pao.

A week after "special friend's" discharge and I was hesitant to remain close to him and continue the daily text and call the we had. Well he's not checking on me aswell yet he still visits me in the clinic. [pero I wasn't excited to see him anymore :( ] Wahhh! Yet lastnight I was trying to check if we're still insync and texted him "i hate to admit it yet I miss you na :( ". Upto this moment I get no reply from him. Another (-) negative vibe from him. Wala na tlga eto patutunguhan. The only hope I have is that he'll say something that'll make me feel better and just be humble and just come around..before man lang ako umalis!*wishful thinking*

Hay! This I promise to myself everyweekend will be a PARTY. I need to make good memories and do my signature crazy-once-in-a-lifetime moments with friends!!!! GERA ON!

.crazy hella week.

the week was filled with depression,confussion and exhaustion. . Sunday night was when i got a call from "sweetness" that he's not feeling well and he's going to the E.R. for consult. Surprisingly I was so freaking worried and was checking on him from time to time..(i can't even close my eyes because i was so bothered) ... and so i laylowed because I was afraid to accept that I do have deep feelings for him already (well not that I haven't shared it with others, but this seemed a lot way more than I expected) To my surprise he texted and told me that he'll be going to the clinic since he's been having fever for the past 3 days..to make the long story short..he had Dengue and got admitted. During his confinement i was giving my best effort on comforting him (kinapalan kona muka ko and still visit him everyday) Yun lang hinde ko alam if naapreciate ba nya or naiirita na sya saken (feeling girlfriend kase ako..haaay! ang hirap ng ganito..no commitment) hmmm.. I only have 2 weeks to see him..after that everything will be over. I don't think what we have is bound to last especially on long distance... He's just too numb and afraid to settle... (that's the hardest part that I need to deal with)

:(

.temptation.temptation.

I'm weak! I admit..hmm i guess being not exclusive with sweetness makes me more rebelious in some ways.. I get to hanged out with an old fling - surprisingly it was awesome.. compared to the last time we saw eachother..maybe it's because it's been a long time since we've seen eachother, get to bond with him selling burgers.. haaay! I can't explain it yet it felt good doing something special for him and got appreciated after.. I just can't help but *smile*

wah! I'm a crazy lil' single girl!!!

.simply special.

I am so bading right now. I think I just fall for my close guy friend from work. He does things na nakakaloka..like he extends his time to see me in the morning before I open the clinic.. (2x pa) Well im happy that we get to this level... It's not a bf/gf relationship that's entitled on exclusivity and restrictions. We're just happy that we have eachother - and that matters a lot to me..

.Beb's in town!.

Went to the mall early to meet up with beb Ayeen who was just here last Tuesday and had her flight today na kagad (Saturday). Well we just spent time buying pasalubong.. grabe I did miss her tlga.Ayeen was one of my closest friend during college. Since we're the only few Benildeans who lived up North so we get to meet and hangout often during no-school weekend. Hay those were the days...Now she's off back to Dubai for work!

Until we meet again beb!!!! :)

.on losing my hundred dollar bill.

I woke up early with hopes of going shopping today. I actually had my sister's bf drive me to have my $100 changed to peso.Unfortunately on our way to the grocery I went to check my money yet to my surprise it wasn't in my wallet. (huhuhu!) I am so clueless on where I placed it or if someone has stolen it from me. This incident is so disheartening 'coz I just realized that (1) it was from my dad before he left for NY ; (2) i'm broke and i need it now ; (3) i really need to take care of my possessions ...(huhuhu!)

Sweetness is still sick, I'm really worried about him coz he's been a workaholic and needed a tonsilectomy soon , yet he's pasaway and ignoring his medical condition. (errr!) :(

I just stayed home this Saturday just went online and accomplished my CGFNS application and looked for prospective schools in NY for my Masteral Degree. (in case I go for Plan A) haaay!!!

.i hate goodbyes.

Tomorrow is the day when Cate flies to US for good.It saddens me a lot since for a long time me and Cate has been very close like sisters.She has always been there for me through good or bad, a lot of events in our lives were shared together.(after duty gimiks,sleepover,out of town,roadtrips,kalokohan,kabaliwan) I will trully treasure those and hope to make more memories together when I finally go to the US aswell.Thank you for the friendship!


Until we meet again sweetie *Good Luck and Take Care*