...from my creative mind

Rian Ruiz - 26 years!

2011-07-11T19:39:00.000-07:00

I am diverse,versatile,well-rounded,goal oriented and creative woman. I took up Business Administration major in Computer Applications at De LaSalle College of St.Benilde.During my college days I opened my small online shop selling pre-owned items and eventually I made my own accessories like flower brooches,layered necklaces, stylish headbands and other trendy accessories. It was my goal to use my skills in web development and my passion for fashion that brought me to become an entrepreneur at that time.I also became a blogger and get to contribute for www.stealthatlook.com (www.stealthatlook.multiply.com) regarding fab finds:a list of local online shops, during the start of multiply.com's site as a platform for fashion online market in the country. After college I went to New York for a vacation and it opened a wider interest for me about western culture. I went back to Manila to pursue my goal to serve others and so I enrolled to a Nursing course.Photo editing has been one of my interest also; editing friend's set cards,head shots and portfolios.I design invitations for my friend's parties and make creative photo gift tags during holiday's gift giving or during special events.I wanted to make other people feel special and surprising them with unique gifts made them appreciate the present more. I became a second courser while I part-time as a Barista for Starbucks Philippines. That experience widen my other network,friends and build my confidence in dealing with different people from different walks of life.I also get to work for a Fashion Show as a Stylist with a Carnival Theme which was organized by friends who are starting a Modeling Agency. I graduated and passed the Nursing board exams in 2009. From then on I worked as an Employee Health Clinic Nurse at St.Luke's Medical Center.I became part of their Employee and Labor relations department engaged in presenting Wellness Activities,Summer Outings,Sports Feast and other Company Events.That job experience gained me more awareness in wellness- participating on yoga classes and aerobic exercices.Now I jog/run, do boxing trainings, yoga, and maintain being fit.Presently I am a part-time wedding coordinator, online shop entrepreneur, and reviewing for upcoming exams for Nursing. I am always online and in constant lookout for trends/fashion report locally and internationally. I get to attend fashion shows during Philippine Fashion week and other Trunk Show Events in New York aswell. I have the desire to discover what life has to offer,having a positive outlook in life and in continuous search for more challenges and experiences where I can impart my knowledge,skills and passion to others.It has always been a dream for me to work for Summit Media and now that "The Mall.ph" via "stylebible.ph" has been a success, it made me more motivated being part of your team sharing my background in web development, my love for fashion, skills in customer service, my love for fashion, enthusiasm in styling and wide range of contacts from Fashion,Medical,Hotels,Business and Events Industry.Those are my personal qualities, experiences and journey that I hoped would qualify me for the Editorial Assistant position in your company.

Reality Check 2011

2011-06-04T19:15:00.000-07:00

It's June already time flies so fast.. I am stuck at home due to my "eye condition" now my right eye is infected aswell (huhuu!) I dunno if my eyes are just sick and tired of seeing the house 'coz whenever I'm out it's getting better! Crazy medical condition! Anyways I just want to make a reality check.. Looking on how things went from deciding to go back here in the Philippines and starting on my own,trying to get my independence.

Here's a run-down of what life has been :)

*challenging*

Febuary 2011

Get to spend time with hubby,his fam and friends.
Visit St.Luke's family.
Look for Nursing trainings and seminars.
Wedding preparation for client:LOT!

March 2011

Attend IVT training @ PHC. (completed)
Exam and interview for Staff Nurse position @ SLMC. (failed)
Got a part-time job back @EHC.
Challenges with daily operation of EHC (dame pasaway na employees talaga)

April 2011

Summer vacation with hubby and friends @ Ilocos.
Job Hunt! Job proposal! Business proposal!
Dramahan with Ate Pia and Nary.(I'm fed up na!)
Got my Student Driver's Permit. :)
Pass resume direct to Marikina Valley Medical Center.
Vacation leave ni hubby! :)
Bonding with cuz Bless and friends.
Launch Fashionista Nurse online store @ Multiply.com
Jogging/work-out

June 2011

Pass resume online thru Jobstreet.com
Reunion with Santos family.
Hangout with Gelo's family and relatives.
Jogging!
Learn how to drive (sana)
Get a new job!

So far that's how things has been.. Hay i'm in so much pressure right now I'm broke and unemployed...:( Emotional Rollercoaster.The only thing that's satble is my LOVE LIFE . :)

March - April 2011

2011-05-09T18:25:00.001-07:00

dear Everyone,

March has been a busy month for me. Adapting being back to my Manila life. Living eachday with my beloved hubby, catching up on missed bonding with our friends and families. I managed to complete my IV training , working on our client's wedding preparations and pursuing job opportunity as a staff nurse @ SLMCQC ( which didn't pushed through). Instead I was offered to relieve my previous manager's numerical @ EHC.

April- I was back @ SLMCQC-EHC as a company nurse. Back to my Monday to Friday 8-5 job. It was for a month's contract. A lot of issues, negative vibes and irate & arrogant people encountered every week (grrr!). Yet I get to spend more time with Sweetness (morning breakfast,3 o'clock visit,praying in the chapel,strolling around the hospital). Bonding with Shel got shortened due to her LapCholecystectomy :(. Trained a new nurse, Maine and my OJT's. As usual kulitan with the HE doctors was one of the highlight. I also get to attend SLMC's 2011 summer outing (what an experience- 1st time to use the O2 tank,naging professional first aider ako bigla). Ended the month with Holy Week - experienced Bisita Iglesia with the Belano's.

May started with a Northbound Adventure with Sweetness, my sister & friends. We went to visit Ilocos. It was super hooooot! Yet it was exciting going back to my grandparent's hometown. We were still small when we last visited and it was still with my parents and relatives. It was a long awaited out of town vacation with Sweetness. (Super tired pero enjoy at busog sobra). Pictures to be posted soon @ sweetnessislove.

.sadness on Vday.

2011-02-14T19:23:00.001-08:00

I don't know pero i really felt sad after seeing pictures of friends holding their flowers.chocolates,gifts from their special someone. Then it hits me that it's Feb.15 morning already and not a single rose insight. Did Valentine's day just passed. I was at the same location where my bf was for the entire day but get to spend it more with other single friends since he was on duty. I was being the same old me-feeling single waiting for something to happen, just helping other friends buy roses, eating other people's cake,being treated by others. Ok, I admit that I went all the way from NY just to spend Valentine's day with my sweetness. I was just dissappointed that he just let it pass and dwell on his problems at work. Yes, I am being immature and selfish right now. I'm a bad gf who doesn't deserve a rose on Valentine's day!

.close to giving up.

2010-12-01T06:48:00.000-08:00

I woke up checking my phone and still got no reply/text from my boyfriend. I was thinking that he has no load or something's wrong with his phone again. So I just send a text message saying "i miss you,ope ur fine, thanks for not replying". But then now he replied "Bakit galit? busy hubby. :(". Containing my disappointment i delayed my reply. Then he text again "galit ba wife ko?"..then after coming up with a neutral reply (since I don't wanna sound overly pissed) "im not mad.nanibago lang ako na hindi mo sinabe kung nasan kana.sorry naistorbo kita"..he replied.."sorry busy lang hubby now"..(then suddenly I felt teary eyed)I guess I wasn't mad but I felt unimportant and disappointed. So I just decided to shut my globe phone. (I just feel tired checking my phone for nothing). Actually I'm tired of my life's setup!And my relationship with him is not helping. :(

.reality check.

2010-11-20T05:55:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since the last time I blogged here. This used to be my "vent blog", I just let out my ideas, feelings, experience and just share anything without being judge by anyone. It's been a month and a half since I left Manila. Resigning from my job-leaving my bestfriends-leaving my boyfriend-leaving my crazy life. Being with my parents and sister here in NY is like living my younger days. Staying at home, trying to please the family eachday, doing household chores, going shopping. Yet the more I feel useless and stuck up. I don't know if I can ever stand on my own feet.

.first kiss.

2010-09-25T01:42:00.000-07:00

Last night was the 3rd batch of my despedida party. This time I get to celebrate with my new friends from SLMC (from Admissions,CAD,IMD,Pharmacy,Wellness). Another videoke party , wherein most of the songs were dedicated to me and sweetness. Everyone was crazy-drunk . We were all singing our hearts out and dancing aswell, nakakaloka tlga. Most of the evening I was seated beside sweetness. He was being super caring (well not letting me drink shots and stopping me from "yo"). Then when we had to drive ciarky home, we were seated in the backseat of Carlo's car, then he suddenly became cuddly and being sweet to me - holding my hand. *blush* From that time I know that this was the time that I have been waiting for, for us to finally just express our feelings for eachother. Back to my house where everyone was wasted already and was all laying on the couch. So me and sweetness just had a little chit chat and bonded more playing our iTouch. At 3am the girls woke up already and was sober to head home. So it's just me,sweetness and his friend left in the living room. His friend was really knocked down, and so we had the entire night for eachother. He was experiencing insomia so i had to be awak e and join him. Then there was MAGIC :) he started pinching my nose and becoming flirty, we were cuddling and I went to lay on his lap, when he suddenly leaned towards me and gave me a passionate kiss *kilig super* it went on for several times.. and it felt so good! I was feeling verry happy and just wanted to stay on his arms the entire time. We got sleepy around 5am just when the sun started to arise. *perfect moment*.

Now I am feeling elated! I just can't help but smile by just the thought of him kissing me. It may sound cheesy yet I miss him already. I think I love him already. I'm so thankful that he turned around and made a move.

I only have a week to spend time with him.. I'm really hoping that he'll consider having a long distance relationship with me..( I maybe demanding and selfish, but right now I can see myself spending the rest of my life with him ) *all smiles*

I love you Angelo Belano!!!

.Another crazy-drama filled week.

2010-09-12T06:40:00.000-07:00

I started the week with hangover from my weekend gimiks. I had dinner with my HS barkada to celebrate Joyce' success in passing the Med. board exam. We get to update eachother and had the usual asaran- laughtrip over beer. (hehehe namiss ko sila mga kumare na tlga) then I get to hangout with Gelo (grabe I even fetched him at work) well t'was the first time that we get to spend time together alone. Ofcourse I was happy to be with him and kilig. Yet I have to send him home 'coz I was meeting other group of friends @ The Reserve. So down to my next stop. Joy and friends were there and surprisingly Aid followede and requested me to stay with him since he didn't wanna go home yet and wanted to have some after gimik breakfast pa.Unexpectedly I bumped into my cousin and her friends so the night was extended til 5am. They were drunk already and even thought that I was dating Aid (funny talaga! walang ka idea idea si Aid about what they were thinking) Ohwell good thing he didn't mind and just enjoyed our time together.

And so Monday came I got colds and wasn't feeling well. I took a sick leave came Tuesday.(wawang bata) .Neways came Thursday and we (my officemates) had a girl's night out @ Off the Grill , Tomas Morato. Yet another drama came up when Gelo was messing up my night and started to disappoint me (naiinis kase ako everytime na tinatabla nya ako, hindi ko alam if intentionally ba ito or manhid lang tlga sya and doesn't care about how I would feel) He even pushed the limit and tested my patience of telling me that he would pick me up but he was bringing his officemate with us aswell ( hay! should I just accept the fact na he didn't thought it would be a big deal for me and i won't mind at all) So I got pissed and even more hurt. (I was so disappointed with him talaga) I wanted to talk it over after the Healing Mass Event that I had to attend to , yet we never get a chance. Until today I haven't heard from him. His phone was turned off since yesterday (hmp! ayoko na sana isipen. ayoko na sana i-big deal. pero hinde pa din ako/kame ok .It still bothers me kase I care about our friendship so much). I never expected na it would reach upto this point na magkakaganito ako with him. I hate to admit na we're not Ok anymore, sobrang nakakabother. I only have until Thursday to stay at St.Lukes and this adds to the pressure I am feeling. Nakakaloka sobra! I don't really know what to do, the waiting is killing me. (i miss him na!)

Before I forget, I get the chance to party with my UMAK friends. We partied @ Cafe 80's! (grabe we got super drunk over tequila shots) to the point that Jojo had to give me taxi fare 'coz he cant drive me home to QC anymore. (hehehhe lasing si Papi) I had fun and I felt so touched that they really felt sad that I was leaving soon. Overjoyed talaga 'coz Cates even called to say hi and try to be present kahet phone patched lang..(heheh! They'll always be like a family to me na). I'm so blessed to have you guys in my life!

Another week has ended. I just hope things between me and Gelo will be fixed na. A lot of paties coming and I'm bound to bid farewell to EHC this Thursday na. (awww! 9 months din ako nagstay and I'm still gonna work hard up to the end) I'm having mixed emotions na and I know I'm about to breakdown soon (*deep sigh*)

One more thing, Bezy's birthday invite was done already and this is what we came up with. I'm happy that I get to do it for her and she actually wanted me to do it for her most awaited 26th birthday celebration!!!

.1 month to go before I say goodbye.

2010-09-03T16:39:00.000-07:00

Another turning point in my life. I decided to quit my job and pursue my American dream. 30 days left to finish whatever that needs to be done. Resignation requirements, NCLEX application, Closure with special friends, Despedida parties, Birthday celebration of Ate Pia, Joy and Pao.

A week after "special friend's" discharge and I was hesitant to remain close to him and continue the daily text and call the we had. Well he's not checking on me aswell yet he still visits me in the clinic. [pero I wasn't excited to see him anymore :( ] Wahhh! Yet lastnight I was trying to check if we're still insync and texted him "i hate to admit it yet I miss you na :( ". Upto this moment I get no reply from him. Another (-) negative vibe from him. Wala na tlga eto patutunguhan. The only hope I have is that he'll say something that'll make me feel better and just be humble and just come around..before man lang ako umalis!*wishful thinking*

Hay! This I promise to myself everyweekend will be a PARTY. I need to make good memories and do my signature crazy-once-in-a-lifetime moments with friends!!!! GERA ON!

.crazy hella week.

2010-08-28T04:34:00.000-07:00

the week was filled with depression,confussion and exhaustion. . Sunday night was when i got a call from "sweetness" that he's not feeling well and he's going to the E.R. for consult. Surprisingly I was so freaking worried and was checking on him from time to time..(i can't even close my eyes because i was so bothered) ... and so i laylowed because I was afraid to accept that I do have deep feelings for him already (well not that I haven't shared it with others, but this seemed a lot way more than I expected) To my surprise he texted and told me that he'll be going to the clinic since he's been having fever for the past 3 days..to make the long story short..he had Dengue and got admitted. During his confinement i was giving my best effort on comforting him (kinapalan kona muka ko and still visit him everyday) Yun lang hinde ko alam if naapreciate ba nya or naiirita na sya saken (feeling girlfriend kase ako..haaay! ang hirap ng ganito..no commitment) hmmm.. I only have 2 weeks to see him..after that everything will be over. I don't think what we have is bound to last especially on long distance... He's just too numb and afraid to settle... (that's the hardest part that I need to deal with)

:(

.temptation.temptation.

2010-08-22T05:31:00.000-07:00

I'm weak! I admit..hmm i guess being not exclusive with sweetness makes me more rebelious in some ways.. I get to hanged out with an old fling - surprisingly it was awesome.. compared to the last time we saw eachother..maybe it's because it's been a long time since we've seen eachother, get to bond with him selling burgers.. haaay! I can't explain it yet it felt good doing something special for him and got appreciated after.. I just can't help but *smile*

wah! I'm a crazy lil' single girl!!!

.simply special.

2010-08-18T19:20:00.000-07:00

I am so bading right now. I think I just fall for my close guy friend from work. He does things na nakakaloka..like he extends his time to see me in the morning before I open the clinic.. (2x pa) Well im happy that we get to this level... It's not a bf/gf relationship that's entitled on exclusivity and restrictions. We're just happy that we have eachother - and that matters a lot to me..

.Beb's in town!.

2010-07-24T03:39:00.000-07:00

Went to the mall early to meet up with beb Ayeen who was just here last Tuesday and had her flight today na kagad (Saturday). Well we just spent time buying pasalubong.. grabe I did miss her tlga.Ayeen was one of my closest friend during college. Since we're the only few Benildeans who lived up North so we get to meet and hangout often during no-school weekend. Hay those were the days...Now she's off back to Dubai for work!

Until we meet again beb!!!! :)

.on losing my hundred dollar bill.

2010-07-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

I woke up early with hopes of going shopping today. I actually had my sister's bf drive me to have my $100 changed to peso.Unfortunately on our way to the grocery I went to check my money yet to my surprise it wasn't in my wallet. (huhuhu!) I am so clueless on where I placed it or if someone has stolen it from me. This incident is so disheartening 'coz I just realized that (1) it was from my dad before he left for NY ; (2) i'm broke and i need it now ; (3) i really need to take care of my possessions ...(huhuhu!)

Sweetness is still sick, I'm really worried about him coz he's been a workaholic and needed a tonsilectomy soon , yet he's pasaway and ignoring his medical condition. (errr!) :(

I just stayed home this Saturday just went online and accomplished my CGFNS application and looked for prospective schools in NY for my Masteral Degree. (in case I go for Plan A) haaay!!!

.i hate goodbyes.

2010-07-03T04:38:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the day when Cate flies to US for good.It saddens me a lot since for a long time me and Cate has been very close like sisters.She has always been there for me through good or bad, a lot of events in our lives were shared together.(after duty gimiks,sleepover,out of town,roadtrips,kalokohan,kabaliwan) I will trully treasure those and hope to make more memories together when I finally go to the US aswell.Thank you for the friendship!

Until we meet again sweetie *Good Luck and Take Care*

.no work Wednesday.

2010-06-29T22:21:00.000-07:00

It's a feel good Wednesday having an off in the middle of the week is such a relaxing moment..Well today is the Inauguration of the new Philippine President NOYNOY Aquino..which I have watched on the television earlier today!

Anyways, 2 weeks ago my hs bestfriend Deng left for UK for a carreer opportunity, 'twas so sad coz' we didn't have the time to bid farewell with eachother- the friendship suddenly was put to a hold .. i'm sure she had some reasons why she chose not to say goodbye to me nor with our barkada.. I just hope I'll get the chance to see her again before each one of us settles in a different country.
More to my grief sweetie Cates is leaving for US this Sunday already, it hits me again coz all of my female and male bestfriends are far away... Beb ayeen is in Dubai, Bez Jeremy is in Texas, and my family is in NY...wah! I can't really take it anymore.. I really am planning to go to US aswell ..haaay!!! ang hirap ng feeling,sometimes you just feel alone! :( boohoo..

I'm beginning to think if there are still some things that I have to finish here in PH..maybe I'd just let go of those and just start anew in a different environment,in a different place,in a different country.

I'm 25 seeking for a carreer ,for a serious relationship and for satisfaction. This I challenge myself that in the days to come I will take responsibility on fixing my life and leading to to a path of a greener pasteur. :) *so help me God*

.updating life.

2010-06-27T06:22:00.000-07:00

A week after my Cebu-Bohol vacation..

I'm on the verge of making new plans for my life, making life changing decision needs to start now. I just realized that it's time for me to act now. Be Productive and Not waste time!!!

(test post)

.until you come back - rom.

2010-06-05T07:28:00.000-07:00

Until U Come Back lyrics found at elyricsworld.com

.history repeats itself. it's crazy!

2010-05-30T07:33:00.000-07:00

After 2 days of not getting any messages from "the doctor" he suddenly did awhile ago after i celebrated mass, at first i was hesitant to reply..yet i remained casual and did reply. Everything was going fine until he asked if i wanted to join him for coffee - and so i said yes! yet he wanted to delay the time like past 9pm. (not again,im getting tired of this setup! ang dame nyang arte!) to my ines - i asked for advice from "Mr.friendly" infairness he made me stand firm of not letting him win this time..and just decline his offer. As expected "the doctor" had a violent reaction..(na ayaw ko lang daw,minsan nanga lang daw kme magkita) haay! he's making me go crazy....i just can't deal with someone who has a very low EQ!!!

So i just ended up talking to "Mr.friendly" to calm me down from my ines.. that the focus of our conversation went to his real identity.. he's bisexual!!!! (my jaw dropped when he confessed !)not making it such a big deal i managed to tell him na if what makes him happy i'll still acccept him as a friend..

Seriously, i'm still in shock! i'm going crazy na.. this is too much to handle for a Sunday night...looking back in my past - nangyare na eto before with another guy friend of mine..
ano bah? baket ang lapit ko sa mga BI???? at sa mga walang kwentang mga Lalake???

.my 3rd MISTAKE.

2010-05-29T17:22:00.000-07:00

ok I take it back I ain't falling for "the doctor"another big mistake..he's been aloof and unreachable..it sucks...let's just drop it!

on the other hand... "the Mr.friendly" is being super nice..well he's always there when i needed someone to comfort me..and he just gets me when I am down in despair..hmmm!l et's just leave it that way muna..I won't over analyze things... I'm just smiling now :)

.on meeting the ONE.

2010-05-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

"There is no remedy for love but to love more"
- Henry David Thorean

Coming from nowhere a friend of mine texted me and asked me if it is ok to give out my number to a guy..since I don't have any love life , she wanted to match me with this guy who's in the same field as I am.. At first I was hesitant 'coz I had friends before match making me with unmatched friends of theirs..So I had to make sure first so I asked for his FB account first, just to give me an idea how he looked like and his interests aswell..
The next day I did checked his page, he looked fine naman..he had braces,chinky eyes and great big smile..Snd so I gave my friend the permission to officially "bugaw" me.. To make things faster I added him at FB..(ahahah atat!)
At work I was waiting for his text...and then he did.. (Wednesday) He greeted a simple Gudmorning! --- and then we've been texting everyday..then decided to meet up (Friday) at Starbucks Tomas Morato, then everything seemd fine I was really comfortable with him..that we started flirting with eachother..(kulitan lang!) then we headed at home and just booze up there..Twas a crazy-naughty-fun date.. hmm! I do like him na ata..ahahah! I just can't wait to see him again.. (awwww! kilig)

.on my circus day.

2010-05-19T06:37:00.000-07:00

Today was crazy.. started the day with me still feeling antok..yet i need to get up and be ready for work... my body felt good yet I instantly felt my muscles aching,,due to lastnyt's 2-hour yoga..(nabatak ang buto buto ko)

I was energetic to work..was able to accomplish a lot..had lots of laughing moments with my officemates and dotors.. yet sabe nga nila mahirap magisng super saya,kase may kapalit na sadness..

To make the long story short - imediately I went home as soon as the clock striked 5pm..and then suddenly my hapiness is over.. I got a call from my boss questioning why I got home early..(freaking BV!!!)errr!...until now i can't get over it! gudluck nalang saken tom! I might facing a lot of negative vibes tom for sure..haaay!*sighs* : (2nd time na nasabon ako sa work!)

On the other hand si "mr.friendly" layed down his cards- na he's still seeing his ex pa pala even before he started to become uber friendly to me..eto pa even told me na they'll be dating the entire day... well it's beginning to weird me out coz he still calls me and update me his whereabouts..i dunno y? (seriously nakakaloka yet nasasanay na ako and it scares me kse alam ko he likes his ex padin) hinde ko alam ano intentions nya saken,seriously!?

Bute nalang despite my crazy day "the doctor" texted me na..hihihi! the entire day we were texting..*kilig* i added him sa FB na din..not bad looking naman..I'm really looking forward of seeing him in person na..wah!i need to fix up..super exhausted nako..not a gud thing for a 1st date, which is tom na ata..oh no...(next week nalang!)

it's *FFING HOT ..kairita!bummer tlga...

.on a crazy yoga day.

2010-05-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

I'm like planted on my bed..lying and just thinking..

1st yoga session was a lot of fun!I felt comfortable naman doing it within a group..(kailang lang when *he's* staring at me as i do odd poses..rawwrr!)next Thursday ulit..:P

new found friend is being uberly open and told me all about his happiness since his ex has been texting him again..(*sighs* sabe konga he just sees me as a friend..i hate guys like him..pero bute nalang pinaloadan nya ako..hihi! gudfriend naman sha..pwede na!)

my hs friend is matchmaking me with a medical intern - saw his pics at FB and Yeah! he's my type of guy.. ahahha!GO..this could be fun! i think i do deserve more "the doctor" than the "mr.friendly"...i just wish he'd text me soon...

.on hotness Monday.

2010-05-17T08:38:00.001-07:00

my horoscope states that I'll be having a lovelife soon..could it be true this time?well there's only one person who seems to be possibly falling to that category (ahahah!NOT! ah ewan) This new guy still calls and utter messages like gudnyt-gudnoon, and calls up eveytime he heads home after work.. we'll see it's week 2 now.. :) going strong! go go go!

Still confused on how to organize my carreer, d ko parin alam gagawen ko..there are some big decisions that I am just waiting for "the final judgement" I just hope all goes well and I won't get terminated or suffer any tragic consequence for a mistake I have done. (this I lift up to you Lord)

Steady Monday! sleeepy as ever!! ZZZzzz....
*grooveshark.com rocks!!!*

.on always being the friend never the girlfriend.

2010-05-16T06:33:00.000-07:00

Sunday - I woke up late since I got home past 3am already.As usual I was too lazy to move and start the day ..I stayed in bed and surfed the net - surprisingly all of my best guyfriends are online and we got to catch up with eachother through ym, fb chat and skype (awww they are all being sweet *love 'em tlga*). Well they have always been my kuya.instant bf.man figure.friend.They really help me in times of emo moments or when I just need affirmation coming from a guy.ahahahha!!!

Celebrated mass at Christ the King SVD presided by Fr. Arlo with my bestfriend Deng. We were catching up as the mass went on and she finally spilled the beans that she's leaving for UK soon.In an instant I felt a hole in my chest, this will be the first time that we will be far from eachother(2-year contract). I almost cried because I felt sad of the thought that 2 of my girl bestfriends are leaving and even daddy is going back to NY this Sunday already; well bezy's going to be in the US this entire June.. oh no! my persons are leaving.i don't know what to expect on the months to come... :(

more to my emo - the new guyfriend I was talking about confessed that he still likes his EX.. (oh common! not again..well I think it's better that I have known sooner before I get mislead by all his efforts on texting and calling me everyday - definitely not gonna fall for that!did I?!errr! NO!)

Nevertheless, dinner with Nary and Jazzie @ a Thai resto distracted me from all this sadness.. *sigh*

.on soul searching without losing it.

2010-05-15T20:14:00.000-07:00

A rollercoaster week for me..I really feel exhausted starting the week, well fortunately there were a few patients only that went for consultation. Yet being alone in my post makes everything sucky.. Not that I can't manage things on my own - yet it bores me to death working with no one.. And so i ended up whining a lot about the job and thinking of something else to get busy with..but still i have no single idea what to do next. I think I better jot things down to get me started. (ok comercial my best guyfriend just send me his pic topless for the goal of teasing me..RAWR!!!)ok I got lost there for a minute!!(cooling down)

On the other hand my week ended getting my pay.getting my longed for massage.a date.partying with my girls.

*HIGHLIGHTS!*
>new found guy SUN-friend! :)
>new massage place discovered - Body Delight
>new dresses and rompers purchased!
>new acquaintances..

.on updating my blog site.

2010-05-13T07:04:00.000-07:00

It's already May 2010.. been so busy with life.. I finally have a job as a nursing admin @ St. Luke's Medical Center Q.C. It's been 5 months already and yeah I manage to survive a new environment and a new job being a nurse. Well im feeling a bit stressed out lately with all the issues at work and life's pressures.. Still I haven't applied for NCLEX nor IELTS. I have been thinking a lot lately on how i wana spend the next 5 years of my life before i turn 30. Well sometimes it crosses my mind that I wanna have a baby already; yet that seems to be impossible since I am still single.Yeah still SINGLE.. it's seems like the longest period of time being love-less, especially now that career is my number one priority for the year..
Anyway enough of these non-sense anxiety related issues of mine..

Talking about my present life.. I'm kilig or should I say I'm happy to get to be friends with a new guy.. He managed to adopt with my stubborness and emo moments and even made an effort on visiting me..(kilig tlga!) I'm not really that into him yet ..well we haven't hangout pa naman, I'm just excited to get to know him better.. I just hope that this won't be another stucked-up relationship.. wherein i always find myself explaining to friends when they ask how I am and the guy ---> "we're not gonna reach to any level than just being friends" just to make them stop wishing for a fairytale ending -well 3 had failed already so I might aswell break the spell and try to work things out this time..I just hope that in some ways he's appreciating my existence the way I do with him..ughhh! I'm really not good in hiding my feelings (kulit mode:ON)...imma keep my fingers crossed and hope to break the spell...

"tomorrow's another day-it's payday Friday- it better be good"

.1 week of not being makulit.

2010-01-22T21:47:00.000-08:00

i feel so resented by people close to me right now..like my existence has become so irritating for them.. :( have i been so inconsiderate ba? it depresses me getting negative vibes.. parang i just wanna be quiet and invisible for a week and wait for the time when they all miss me again..haaay! parang it's hard being ME..ang daming restrictions/complications/expectations .. I just wish i could be free and happy..

maybe i'll just make use of this week to contemplate on my goals for 2010..

*sighs*

anti-social mode :ON

.memory - fragma.

2010-01-20T02:20:00.000-08:00

***One second of hope.Is a week of regret.The curse of the mind.Is that it never forgets***It’s only…Memory, memory, memory.It’s all over the top now.Memory, memory, memory.And I need it to stop now***

on my New Year Goals -2010

2010-01-17T07:03:00.000-08:00

2009 is over . Well so far it has been the best year of all time.. I was able to receive a lot of blessings and answered prayers.. thank you LORD!! I passed the NLE June - got a Nursing job @ SLMC - Parents and sister went to visit Manila after 7 years!!! Winner talaga..

so for the year 2010:

I need to make my new goals and have a fresh start. :P

so far living the first 17 days of Jan. 2010 was very busy and toxic. There was Cate's wedding last Jan.4 in Baguio + Family major outing + Work work work + Met someone on the love category.whew a lot of things has happened already and that's a good thing to start the year!!!

Well i still need to list down a draft of my goals for the year..

here's what I have in mind..

1. Learn to drive a stickshift car

2. Get as many nursing trainings and seminars

3. Complete all the NCLEX requirements

4. Take/Pass the NCLEX

5. Take/Pass IELTS

6. Stabilize the business with bless

7. Revive my online store

8. Look for my own "mananahe"

9. Pimp my room space

10. Have a serious relationship

11. more.....

yikes! I really do need a lot of discipline and budgeting to accomplish these.. Positive lang ako palage .. I know all of these will be done before the year ends!!! Keeping the FAITH up! :)

.on being confused.

2009-10-10T05:42:00.000-07:00

am I just bored, or magkakaron lang ba ako..or am I missing him..waaah! well I went out on a date with *J lastnight well ok naman..medyo quiet lang sha..mga booboos namemention ko name ni *P..i'm getting crazy again..am I afraid of being attached ??? d kona alam.. all i know is i just wanna have fun..well *P is a lot of fun...on the otherhand *J is a gentleman.. wah!! i need a drink.. ayoko na ibig deal and bigyan ng meaning lahat ng ito..well i the end it's a matter of wait and see

.on life without internet.

2009-10-04T17:15:00.000-07:00

it's been a 2 weeks since I last got online..Well those two weeks have been crazy for me..Everything started with Bagyong Ondoy -and stillI manage to attend my bestfriend's birthday party..Her crowd has been very different from mine,well kinda - siguro I ust have a lot of friends from different walks of life kaya I tend to categorize.. Anyway as always Ms.Congeniality nanaman ang act ko + added boost of confidence and kakulitan from the alcohol. In a night I was able to make new friends,even crash another birthday party..everything was unplanned and these are those times when you just let go of all your fears and hesitations.. Surprisingly I discovered something about myself that I never thought I can be.. I met someone -well he's just the typical guy who goes to parties and send out those "nice-friendly-bad boy-flirty" moves with girls.. still with respect I just let things flow and tried to discover a mystery.. this urge and curiosity has been unveiled - and i got this feeling like when you have been super resentful of doing something and when u got the guts to do it you find out that it's not as complicated as you thought it was..Lesson Learned: You live ,You learn ...at present I am actually fine -I'm not even affected

.on long hours infront of mac.

2009-09-20T20:13:00.000-07:00

Beb had suggested this new online fashion dress up site. "looklet.com" and Yes I got hooked and made 8 sets in just an hour.. Compared to polyvore.com the site gives the user a model to choose from and have a magazine type outcome..it works for me coz i can't take pictures of myself and blog on chictopia.com..well it adds up to my delight having new sites of this kind..another enticing activity on the web...to view my account "fashionistanurse"

.on choosing the road less traveled.(dateless)

2009-09-19T19:51:00.000-07:00

I'm getting to know this guy through text..i was hesitant at first 'cause i find the process cheesy, being a WYSIWIG -type of girl I'm not good in not showing the true me..I don't want him to think that I am putting my best foot forward .. yet it seems like ganun tlga pag first chat you have to sell yourself and let the true you be unveiled when you meet in person na...

on the other hand I'm losing an old fire..it's been a year that i'm trying to work things out with him yet even in the fling level is hard to maintain.. communicating with him is like always a first time encounter..super low rate of relationship growth. -eff* waste of time

if there's one relationship that i am proud of it would be with lil bro..we went from lil bro-babe-steady-lil bro again yet things are always cool with us..a lot of room to grow especially when we get to live in the same country soon..nothing beats the good old ym-ming tool to keep the friendship burning...

i am doomed for weeks i've been pressuring myself on getting a date for my bestfriend's birthday party yet it seems like i won't have one..i'm not even excited anymore..*phew*

.on keeping good old friends.

2009-09-15T10:28:00.002-07:00

it was super hot this afternoon it felt like 99 degrees..well as planned i need to accomplish some stuff..luckily i managed to go to my aunt's office and had my NCLEX forms printed out..

today was fun..my cousin,her bf,and my cuz-in-law went to visit me..pahangin lang sa garage..heheh! got another evening visit from ate nary during nighttime.. and lastly my bestfriend Marco was in town and we had a midnight coffee chat.. these are the biglaan stuff that i like..steady lang! knowing that i do have friends who'm i can be with everytime despite me being single..ahahaha!

was "youtube-ing" awhile ago and suggested some songs to bez Deng..her songs :

1.Roll the credits

2.Sooner or later

songs i liked:

1.Strawberry swing

2.New perspective

songs for ate nary:

1.Gravity

.on the day before my mens.

2009-09-11T12:43:00.000-07:00

wah!i had another encounter with my temptations..after the weekend that he hasn't been replying my textmessages he just said "musta?" and things are back the way they were...what sucks is that everything is just good for a day..the next day i texted him he didn't reply again..hay! nakakaloka.. hinde ata ako tatagal sa ganitong set up.. susuko na tlga ako ..nakakasira na ng ulo...hay y can't i just find one serious guy whom i can share my life with hinde ba tlga pwede sha nalang??? nakakapagod na sayang sa time and effort.. kase alam ko naman na walang patutumhuhan eto... hay gusto kona tlga lumayo..y parang nahihirapan ako i own ang buhay ko feeling ko robot ako na pinapalitana nalang ng battery pag nawawalan na ng energy gumalaw..shet! I know the least i want from him is THAT..pero pano kung yun lang maoffer nya do i have to accept that offer instead or magwait nalang ako ng masdeserve ko..hay masaya pa ba ako sa kanya?or he's just an old ghost haunting me..? Ayaw kona!!! hay kelangan kona tlga anindigan na tama na kalokohan..enough is enogh! i need to let go and move on!!!! hay itutulog kona eto...

.on road mapping my life.

2009-09-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

I had another interview @ SLMC yesterday and i was thrown with newly encountered questions. It actually bothered me a lot after I left the conference room. Well I'm not confident that I will get the job, but seriously speaking I don't know if I do want that job. Well point to consider is that it isn't a Nursing related job the only advantage is that it's a Hospital- one of the world's best hospital.

Oh well! I guess yesterday was a wake u call for me since I have been procrastinating my NCLEX applications and other nursing stuff. Pressure pressure pressure. The last quarter of the year 2009 is near and I am far from my goals. Now is the time to act. I am guilty of all the weekend gimmicks that has been happening for the past 4 weekends already..yikes!!!

Goals for SEPTEMBER *3 weeks*:
1. Submit PHC form
2. Update resume
3. Finish reading Saunders: Chapter 8-11

Goals for OCTOBER:
1. Get Nursing License
2. Send application to the BON of Vermont
3. Apply for CES
4. Finish reading Saunders:Chapter 12-14

Goals for NOVEMBER:
-

Goals for DECEMBER:
1. Family Celebration
2. My 25th Birthday

"NO MORE DETOURS,IT'S TIME TO STICK TO THE PLAN"

.on my new layout.

2009-09-01T21:00:00.000-07:00

i'm back with a new template.. i feel like i need to get back on my blog and speak out my feelings and insights again through writing...the only option where i can truly say what i feel..

yesterday i was so down..i have to blame it on PMS..but it is also only the time of the month that i become contemplative on how i am handling my life..it was also the 1st day of -BER months..4 months to go before the year ends..

after knowing that i passed the Nursing licensure exam brings all the worries and anxiety back..What to do next? well i have plans of getting a job, taking the NCLEX, getting back on online business, attending trainings and seminars.. YET it has been a month and i haven't started on anything. It's just so frustrating when plans aren't going smoothly.*sighs*

i cried myself to sleep lastnight..i felt alone and untaken cared of..self-pitying ..i even texted the wrong person regarding all my dramas.. it made me feel worse coz he didn't replied..another slap on my face..

i just hope September will be a good busy month for me..I'll be praying harder for that to happen.Prayers are my best ally.

.on thanking the Lord for helping me pass the June NLE.

2009-07-26T09:40:00.000-07:00

"I can do all this through him who gives me strength" - Philippians 4:13

"Don't be anxious about anything,but in every situation,by prayer and petition,with thanksgiving,present your requests to God" - Philippians 4:6

After months of studying, reviewing, completing cases, and taking the Nursing Licensure Exam. all the sacrifices has paid off ---I PASSED THE NLE that I took last June 6-7, 2009!!!

I can't explain the joys I am feeling but I am definitely thankful for the answered prayers and for all the love and support of my family and friends. This is one of the best achievements I experienced in my life.. I learned that if you devote your time and self to one thing plus having a deepened FAITH then all will work well!! I love you Lord! You're making me so happy, I will really devote myself in bringing back the Glory to You.. help me to become a better servant!

I feel good!!! This calls for a celebration.. *Big Hugs* to my friends who weren't able to make it.. There's always something better for you and God will give it to you in the right time..Be thankfull for all the other blessings that you are receiving..and the Lord will give you what you deserve! *muah*

...on the last day of my review break

2009-05-11T06:55:00.000-07:00

today is the last day of my 3-day review break.. twas a rainy day so I decided to stay home and just have ate nary come over to have merienda and do our everyday review session...I did have fun and a productive break.. dyed my hair (d halata kase dark brown yung shade..heheh)...was able to go to EASTWOOD(hangout and had dinner with Carlo,Nary,Noreen)...watched a last full show at Trinoma with Joy (movie: "Ghost of Girlfriends Past" -highly recommended for commitment phobic guys)..visit Sta.Clara Church .. and go online and blog!

gonna fetch my sister later at the airport.. I'm so excited on the pasalubongs..heheheh!!!Since was able to arbor some of my little sister's stuff!!! (ganyan talaga pag recession - trading clothes nalang) It's gonna be a long day tomorrow back to the review!!! News flash it's exactly 25 days to go before the June 6 -7 ,2009 Nursing Liscensure Exam (waaaaaah!!! God help me!)

to end my blog.. a lil update on the love sector.. well I am still single ... 60% healed..
I wish that when the time comes for his surprise agenda.. I will be ready and be happy about it!!!

..on my beach + vivere outfit

2009-03-30T09:55:00.000-07:00

beach 2009 - by fashionistanurse on Polyvore.com

...on being pasaway

2009-03-26T20:35:00.000-07:00

I usually get myself in awkward situations..before when I'm mad I usally keep it to myself..yet after all the experiences I have been through..I became more vocal about my feelings.. yet I am really no expert when it comes to confronting or being a b*tch...My super ego always fights with my id and the ego is crushing right in front of me...!!!

wah! well I did something unfairly unacceptable behavior lastnyt.. and I'm sorry for that coz it involved a gud friend of mine..wah!

I just hope he won't take it against me.. I hope we could just laugh about it...I wish he'd reply...i really feel bad bout it..*sighs*

on the other hand it's always good when all your friends are back in your life..THANKS GUYS!!

..on my personal style

2009-03-25T21:30:00.000-07:00

personal style 1 - by fashionistanurse on Polyvore.com

personal style 2 - by fashionistanurse on Polyvore.com

personal style 3 - by fashionistanurse on Polyvore.com

..on no contol of everything

2009-03-25T05:16:00.000-07:00

wahhhhh*screams*

I have been stressing about my vacation plans .. first the US trip was postponed and now even the Hong Kong trip was postponed..it's giving me a headache already..huhuhuhu!

i think i'd start studying nalang..back on FOCUSING on reviewing for the NLE..*sighs*

..on my dream fashion event

2009-03-24T18:33:00.000-07:00

A good thing to start the day is by having me,my cousin and other friends to be included in the guestlist of the up coming PHILIPPINE FASHION WEEK on May 26- June 3..

I am so excited 'coz it was one of my wish before I leave the country...yehey!!!

..on dream interpretation

2009-03-23T17:55:00.000-07:00

Before I sleep I was having thoughts of him again..

tempting me to text him if he had a safe flight ...

was just listening to the radio...then I just fell asleep...

Waking up was the best part..coz I had a dream...

*blushes* I dreamt that I was hanging out with my ex and her sister and then me and my ex decided to sleep already and then we end up hugging and making love with eachother...*devilish smiles*

I also dreamt about my dad carrying my sleeping inaanak(1 year old) into the couch then I was just staring at her as she sleeps..

I was smiling and hugging my pillow when i woke up yet I knew I have to end my fantasy so I say my morning praying, then off I rushed to my mac to check my dream interpretation..

so here's what it means... -->

EX BOYFRIEND

1. The ex-lover is thinking about the dreamer intensely, and projecting telepathic messages towards her which she receives in her dreams.

2. Incompletions with this person that need to be resolved within the dreamer before he is truly free to move on to a new relationship.

3. Similarities between this past relationship and situations now in the dreamer's life. Solutions to current difficulties may be resolved by the dreamer's remembering how he dealt with the ex-lover.

HUGGING EX

To dream that you are hugging someone, symbolizes your loving and caring nature. you are holding someone or something close to your heart. alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.

SEX

To dream about sex, refers to the psychological completion and the integration of contrasting aspects of the Self. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Alternatively and a more direct interpretation of the dream, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love.

SEX with EX

To dream that you are having sex with an ex or someone who is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together.

SISTER of my EX

To see the sister of your EX in your dream, represents characteristics in her that you find within your own self. Consider also your waking relationship with her.

FATHER

To see your father in your dream, symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.

BABY

To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. If you find a baby in your dream, then it suggests that you have acknowledged your hidden potential.

ok...so it really does connect with my present situation.. the dream was overwhelming and I am not sure if it suggest of communicating with my ex again and finding for closure since I am now on the verge of letting go and moving on..I guess it will be best for the both of us to have space and just see how things will be in the future..for now I'm gonna enjoy my new potentials!!!

*winks*(i take that back) i texted him and told him i dreamt about him..but i didnt go into details anymore don't wanna shock his morning...*kapeesh*

..on loving my Savior

2009-03-23T02:17:00.000-07:00

thank you Lord....

going to Hong Kong na this weekend

and LaLuz Batangas when I get back!

now life starts to make sense again!!!

..on our last text message

2009-03-22T22:21:00.000-07:00

"take care of yourself,'ope you're not mad at me coz i don't wanna part hating eachother,i'm not mad at you don't worry..I just wish that the next time we'see eachother we will be more mature and know how to deal with everything..goodbye for now until the next surprise..God bless you!"

..on hating changing plans

2009-03-22T19:24:00.000-07:00

the past few weeks I have been on intense situations..After getting the results of the Course Audit and luckily I PASSED.. I am determined to take the June boards, focused on reviewing for the freaking exam..I had conditioned myself already... yet life isn't perfect and will never be..(i guess)

My sister has been pressuring me to go with her on a US vacation together with other relatives since she doesn't want to go on flight alone... I had doubts because I'll be missing 2 weeks of my review and that'll be a major risk...So I weighed my status.. for some reasons I wanna join them coz I really do wanna see my family and friends in NY... and so I said I will join them...andnot postponing my local board plans I enrolled for a review this April ..i am willing to take the risk....

But then after deciding on things..I got a call from my uncle telling me that he won't allow me to join them this May rather I move my flight after the board exam.. and my dad commented also the same way... WAAAAAAAH!!! I hate it when I have to decide again for the 2nd time...I hate the pressure that they are giving me..for a moment I thinked and got disappointed (nakakawalang gana na) parang I am left with no choice but to change my decision..

well changes means a lot of violent reaction.. and initially my sister got upset and blamed me on why do I have to go on a review this April to June and not postponed the exam on November instead.and other inconsiderate comments!!!. (sometimes I wonder if she's really my sister,she just never understands me)

ohwell the final decision is that she's going to the US with them by herself and I'll be staying here to not miss any of my review schedule.. (easy to accept if I haven't conditioned myself already on the Pros of leaving)

I just need to wallow and cry it out again.. before things are clear to me...condition myself on another life changing decision...(which is staying here in Manila)

Pros:

Stay focused on my review
Bigger chances of passing the NLE
Make my dad and uncle WIN! on me not joining

Cons:

I won't see mama,daddy and tin..not until 4-6months from now..
Cindy my chinese bestfriend will be upset if she knew i won't be going there soon..
My driking date with leon will be postponed.
I need to take back all the excitement and news that I'll be leaving on May..
No more escape and change in the environment..stuck in Manila!

Well, I was really looking forward already on the trip

and now I have to look forward on something else!!!

Rian isipen mo nalang:

1. Ayeen will be here in Manila on April 11

2. Baka matuloy yung Hong Kong trip on March 28-31

3. May beach plans kayo ni Cates on April 1

4. Your finally single and ready to mingle,enjoy!

5. Review for 2 freaking months might be fun! (grrr)

2008-12-31T22:01:00.000-08:00

on welcoming 2009!!!

Goodbye 2008..finally a new year to begin with. There's always a

feeling of new hope when Jan.1 hits the calendar..hehehhe! Before the year ends I was able to text with one special person (kileg) on the other hand may bad vibes din who keeps on texting insane massages..Ohwell! I am wiser and smarter now - no more bitterness and mercy for those who've hurt me...(whoah!) Good thing I was able to correct my mistakes this year. I have learned how I should deal

with life and lovelife..It can get so messy and exhausting.. yet that's life. Recently I celebrated my 24th birthday.. I am now on my mid 20's and it has been hitting me hard already, Hopefully 2009 has a lot of good vibes instore for me, when it comes to carreer,family,health (uhm, wag muna love..pahinga muna) Shempre I will always keep the people dear to me..

Cheers to 2009!!!!

2008-12-25T06:51:00.000-08:00

on my MERRY-BLESSED Christmas 2008

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Days before Christmas I was a bit anxious on how it'll be this year.. since a lot of my friends are out of the country,family still in NY, recent break up..It was so stressful!Most of the time I will just stay i bed and think on how will I pick up the broken pieces in my life..

Surprisingly my day went fine.. spent it with my family,relatives,nephews and nieces here in Manila.. Was caught till dawn playing "the game of life board game "with my nephews..(ahahah) it was fun and entertaining seeing how kids enjoy opening and playing their gifts.. a lot of hugs and kisses were given to me by the kids (since feeling nila bata pa din ako) sarap lang ng feeling na I was remembered by my Aunts and Uncles and gave me *gifts* (heheheh akala ko pang bata nalang kase gift giving)

I just wanna thank the Lord for all the blessings that he has given me.. I am really blessed ,I am sorry if I have taken those for granted.. sowee! I hope for a great year on 2009! I ought to be more wiser and more mature and responsible ... I'm gona be 24 in 2 days.. *teehee*

Happy Birthday JESUS! I LOVE YOU...

2008-12-02T01:42:00.000-08:00

on fulfilling my fashion dreams...

Nouveaute Fashion Show Event
November 27, 2008
Palacio de Maynila

Stylist/Designers: Rian ,Bless, Jell

http://absolutescorpio.multiply.com

http://daksphotography.multiply.com

...on loving myself so much!

2008-11-18T06:48:00.000-08:00

my new multiply banner..ahahahha! did i took the song literally??? ahahaha! well i've always been flexi..cool + sweet + cute + fun = rian.. ahahaha! i'm happy with what i did!..watchathink?

...on highlighting 2008

2008-11-14T21:49:00.000-08:00

JANUARY

Still renting my apartment.
Busy sa school.
4 mos. with Kris

FEBUARY

Busy sa school.
Basic Life Support training.
5 mos. with Kris

MARCH

Bday ni carlo
Duties!
Finals..
Pahaircut sa TnJ
6 mos. with Kris

APRIL

Malagim na bday ni Nina
Summer Break
MSN2 at NRES (badtrip na prof sa research)
Summer duties!
Hangout with Bestfriends! (Reunited)
7 mos. with Kris

MAY

Patayan sa school!! wah!
8 mos. with Kris

JUNE

Bday ni baby Kian.
Reunion with Erick and Chris
Tagaytay with the tropa
Semender party @ Linden
Swimming with tropa
Duty @ Gensan
9 mos. with Kris

JULY

Duty @ Gensan
Beach Vaca @ Glan
Met comfort guy
Welcome home night out with Joy and Alvin
Duty @ Psych home care center
I'm back - T back party
Reunion with college friends
Inuman nights with cousin Bless
Break up with Kris

AUGUST

Birthday party ni Eric Tagle
Pahaircut sa TnJ
Rom's mom died
Kada outdoor pictorial
Lakwatsa with nar*nar
Inuman @ my apartmen
Weekly inuman with tropa
Bonding with Cate
Swimming @ Swire
Bless' 21st bday party
Reunion with HS friends
Bonding with Erick P.
BnW studio pictorial

SEPTEMBER

Jojo's wild 42nd bday party
Ate p's 26th bday @ Tagaytay
Joy's 24th bday party
Pa rebond @ TnJ
After school inuman
Bonding with Cate
Kythe Orientation

OCTOBER

Nursing clincal graduation batch 2008
Moved out sa apartment (huhuhu)
Vacation @ Davao - Gensan
Meet up with comfort guy
Kate h's bday party
Sem ender party
Gimmik with nar*nar,carlo,ate p
Videoke party with lower batchmates
Bday party ni Arnel
Sleepovers @ Cate's
Dilemma with guyfriends

NOVEMBER

Cate's 29th bday party
Hangout with new friends Toppe and Christian
Sleepover @ Blessie's
Badminton @ home
Rihanna - Chris Brown Concert

DECEMBER

...on every 14th of the month

2008-11-13T16:24:00.000-08:00

I woke up in the wrong side of the bed... expecting for a "happy monthsary" greeting from him (unfortunately wala hmpf!) I feel like ranting right now.. I just wanna go out and stare at the world..

Another surprising comment from my mom "puro ka naman plano!" (sigh!)

currently listening to: If I were a boy by Beyonce

8:54am

Ok! in response to my mom's comment, now is the time that I take some actions to those procastinated plans of mine...

1.Driving Lessons :P10k-P15k

2.Yoga Session: P1k /7days - P5k/31days + transpo fee + gears

3.Kythe Volunteer: transpo fee.

4.Nursing review classes: (mag inquire pa)

5.Fashion styling class: (mag inquire pa)

Now the BIG question is, where do I get the money???

...on missing love

2008-11-12T18:13:00.000-08:00

gudmorning!

I woke up longing for beh! who was on his way to work.. I was just lying down in my bed cuddling my pillow waiting for his gudmorning text.. after 30 mins of waiting.. my hopes had gone down and decided to text him first with a "miss you" quote..*still emoting*.. watched ONE MORE CHANCE the love movie of Bea Alonzo and John Lloyd Cruz (thanks Anna for the suggestion) ..Wah! Not another love story?! yet I enjoyed the movie despite the fact that half of the movie I was crying.. (too much estrogen!) ahahhaha!!

So after I checked my phone and there I saw a gudmorning text message from him. (ugh!kileg) *pauses for awhile* (kinikileg pa din) ahahahah! ok done! *blushes*

PASKO NA! Merry kaya ang 2008 christmas ko?

Giant Christmas Tree

@ Araneta Cubao Center

Circus fashion :Key Items:

2008-11-10T19:55:00.000-08:00

sequins by fashionistanurse

dots by fashionistanurse

ruffles by fashionistanurse

tuxedo by fashionistanurse

stars by fashionistanurse

checks by fashionistanurse

...on a sad and lonely November 1

2008-10-31T18:53:00.000-07:00

hmmm... I guess being back in the house means back to the same old scenario..Where my sister thinks that I am always wrong and I don't deserve to enjoy life..Last night was so hurtful for me to hear her say that I shouldn't lend my things before with my x-bf if we wouldn't stay that long..(how could that ever be possible..for me to know when my relationship will end???) I just hope she would think first before she say something 'coz it hurts me to be reminded that my past relationship sucks..

haay! yet these are the moments when me and my present bf get along...when I seek comfort from him and he's just there to listen..I love him for that! :) Thanks beh!

...on what to wear?

2008-10-28T23:53:00.000-07:00

OH! I adore LC's outfits and im gonna do the

high-waist skirt + tanktop getup!!

probably for Kate C. upcoming birthday party!!!

yipee so excited!

..on a Good Monday Morning Sunshine

2008-10-27T00:15:00.000-07:00

Woke up early to "salubong" the Virgin Mary...It has been the village' tradition to bring her on every household..and now She's here at our home...

Owhell! enough with the dramas and off I go to fix my online shop @ multiply..I started around 11am and still I am here in front of my laptop looking all geeky and nerdy..ahahaha! (so college!)
and here's my finished product (done with the banner palang)

Soon to open: http://fashionistanurses.multiply.com/

..on choosing your guy friends

2008-10-26T09:24:00.000-07:00

I am fortunate to have guyfriends..since I have no brothers..they have been the "kuya image" for me.. they have often become my instant date,driver,shopping buddies,inuman buddies..Everything seems perfect..Yet all good things must come to an end..

A test in our friendship sometimes occurs without you knowing how to handle it..and sadly you are left to just drop the friendship with them to feel safe again and stay at peace..

Dramas often happen with girl friends..pero it's even worse pala with guy friends..I am just fed up with all the uncertainty and betrayal(still unproven) yet action speaks louder than words.. I hate to be treated like I am invincible or apathetic, which is most of the time I cope by just staying cool and not dealing with emotions...Time has changed me to become more vocal when I feel hurt..I still think that I am bad at it and become more broken..I guess that's how you deal with reality.. It has to bump you and crush you to pieces...

Ouchie!

...on a Sunday morning

2008-10-25T17:18:00.000-07:00

* listening to my "yeah girl" playlist*

hay..why is it so hard for me to deal with love..? sometimes i just can't understand inconsistency of communicating with him..sometimes he'll be sweet pero when he is tired he won't even say hi..wala lang.. am i getting to emotional again..i just wish he still feels the same way? =(

Friday Getup
10.25.08

Friday getup by fashionistanurse

2008-10-23T00:31:00.001-07:00

..hiyee I'm back to blogspot...

It's semestral break for me 'til Nov.10.

2008-03-22T22:24:00.000-07:00

on INTERIORS meets FASHION:

Summer is definitely here.. I have atleast 3 weeks vacation before summer classes starts. So here I am avoiding the sun and staying in my room browsing and letting the creative mind work...

I remember watching at lifestyle network where they create a room based on the fashion style of the client.. Well,how about I create a fashion style using these interior desinger's BEDROOM as my inspiration.. (obviously i'm bored..ahahah..and tired of those fashion online games) so I challenged myself to work on that! (kinda excited on these project)
So. here's what I come up with!

ROOM 1: Oceanic

Interior designer says
"it is a blend of Morrocan and contemporary styles make this bedroom unique."
Fashionistanurse' style
"this room reminds me of the ocean..since it's summer I come up with a summer outfit.. a straw hat, a teal colored dress, chain linked necklace and a pair of embellished gladiator sandals..perfect for a time in the beach"

ROOM 2: Funky Asian

Interior designer says
" This restful bedroom features a cozy niche for the bed, creating a sheltered feeling."
Fashionistanurse' style
"This sanctuary is more of a clean and bold room.My style is composed of a graphic tee with the black and white patterned skirt, neutral mixture ballet flats and statement tote.I captured the playfulness of the colors in the room making a funky outfit"

ROOM 3: Classy and Sassy

Interior designer says
"This colorful, soft contemporary bedroom makes use of color for a cocoon effect.
Design Tip: Use patterned fabric on the walls instead of the bed for a different focal point in your bedroom."
Fashionistanurse' style
"The room seems very romantic yet contemporary.The idea of mixing a soft pink ruffled top with the brown and yellow plaid shorts illuminated the windows connecting to the bed. I added those candy colored patent wedge for some bold statement since the room is really has this strong appeal .Completing the outfit with a long chained satin cocktail bag. Ain't it glamorous?"

interior images are from hgtv.com
fashion images are from forever21.com

2008-01-04T19:01:00.000-08:00

on Games for all DESIGNER wannabes:

too bad it only works with WINDOWS..not yet available for MAC...

2008-01-01T05:02:00.000-08:00

JANUARY '08 LOOKBOOK

check it out!

2007-12-31T22:35:00.000-08:00

on Saying toodooloo to 2007:

sweetie.

pimped apartment.

new phone.

NY - DC vacation.

true friends.

fashion biz.

fashion blog.

iHome.

2007-12-16T15:33:00.000-08:00

on saying bye bye to 2007:

its' been a while since my last entry.. almost a month of non existence of me..

so here are some updates about yours truly..

ok I know I have been struggling on designing my apt..

well now it's making it's own "crib statement" already..

take a peep ->

the goal was to make it a zen-asian-colorful-lounge feel to it..

so to achieve this look here are the key piece for you to start on:

paper lanterns - they are very cheap and lightweight. It also comes in different colors and sizes.. I made a chandelier effect on it since I have a high ceiling apt. I added color on my high white painted walls.It is quite a challenge for me to look for it here in Manila so I decided to ask my sister in NY to buy it for me there since japanese stores are just around the corner in NY streets. I got them for $1 - $2. I suggest you check Market2 since I saw some of these hanging on their home department.
rugs - the first rug I got was the blue one which was on sale at play & display . It has defined my living area from the entry and kitchen area. and since I have no seating area.. it is where you can just lay down and enjoy the movie. The second was the larger printed rug I got at Urbanoutftters during a recent vacation. It's kinda heavy to bring home yet for only $20 it was worth it coz I haven't seen much printed rugs here in the country(nice pero yung mura lang ha!).. I have finally made use of the mezzanine area. Where a second bedroom/balcony seating has evolved.
beddings (matching) - I have always dreamed of having a complete set of beddings (bed spread-bed sheets-pillow case - blanket- comforter). My mom got this for me it has a green and pink geometrical theme to it.I suggest that you take advantage of it while it's on sale.Better value for your money, right!

so you've seen my crib!

'ope that inspired you on owning your space and

putting "you" on every 4 corners of your room.

see yah!

2007-11-12T20:58:00.001-08:00

on missing u on our 2nd monthsary:

*now i want a MACbook,hihihi!*

on our 2nd monthsary 13 :

2007-11-06T04:29:00.001-08:00

2007-10-31T12:17:00.000-07:00

on having fun with FISHEYE camera:

it's tin's orange fisheye camera that captured this shots.. pretty cool yet the flash is so bright that a lil adjustment have to be done!! hehehhe! it's so cute!!!

2007-10-24T03:17:00.000-07:00

on my Semestral Break Vacation here in NEW YORK:

before I left the Philippines I was scared coz twas my first time to go out of the country alone.. My flight was like at 6:55am so I went to the airport around 4am.. man, i wasn't even on the plane yet and I got in trouble with my bag.. I can't put the handles down when I was checking it in.. It was like
me:"miss can you assist me on this?"
lady: "sorry ma'am but i can't you have to put the handles dow"
*and so i tried to,, i was even punchin it own..but it won't*
*so i gave up*
me:"i'm sorry but I can't"
lady:"ok then, it won't be our fault if the handles got damaged"
me:on my mind "watever b*tch"
she was way like bigger than me and won't even help me out..grrr!

so off I go for immigration:
as usual the line was so long and only 4 booths were open..time check 5:55am

next stop:
inspection of my hand carry.. im like a lazy packer.. I only brought 1 half-filled luggage and a shoulder bag

then off I wait for boarding..called up sweetie and said my last sweet talks..ahahaha!

it was a 3 seater: so it was this indian looking lady-me-japanese man (we're like the international row..hehhe)
as a snobby girl I wasn't talking to anyone.. until the girl on my left offered me her MEGA magazines..to make the story short..I made friends with her.. the entire trip from JAPAN - DETROIT we're like bonding.. we even took pictures over at NAGOYA airport's restroom..they have this old school toilet bowls which were like placed flat on the floor.. it was sooo funny.. and we enjoyed the high tech hand dryer.. it's like a bread toaster that you have to place your hands inside.. (pics to be posted as soon as I get to contact her) ..I was telling her that our flyt was filled with old people.. there's not even a single hottie in there to stare at.. BUT my coonection flyt to DETROIT finally became more fun when I have a new seatmate and American hunkie modeled tyoe macho guy...(whew it's gettig=ng hot in here) the entire flyt me and my friend were like making -pacute on him.. he;s pretty nice and kinds coz he always wake up in the middle of his sleep when I wanna go to the lavatory..I didn't liek him that much though coz he was drunk and I can smell alcohol when he was sleeping and worse he was snoring... oh and he eats like a hungry hippo... ahahahahha!!!! But still after he wore his shades then I still consider him a hottie!!!! *it was a long crazy boring flyt*

ok the most awaited part was the INTERVIEW with the IMMIGRATION OFFICER: I was in luck coz the only question he asked me was "so when do u plan to go back home" and I said "in a month" and that was the end I got a 6 month permit to stay (ahahahha,,, lucky me!)

domestic flyt from DETROIT- NY-JFK sucks! the pilot was like going around circles.. flying like a mad air driver.. I thought I was like gonna puke ooh and my ears are like dying on me..I'm like getting sabbotaged of something..for a 1 hour flyt.. IT WAS THE WORSE..that I got deaf literally I can't hear anything on my left ear..I was deaf the eantire night!! *errrrrrr*

my parents fetched me at the airport,, then when we got home tin was baking her birthday cupcakes,,It was her 21st Birthday and it was far from what I expected coz she only had 2 friends to celebrate it with snce she got class the next day and has to wake up early...

It really feels like at HOME when Iam here maybe because both my parents are here,, and there's someone looking after me.. unlike when im in the Philippines that I have to live by myself in the apartment,, *hu hu hu*

DAY 2:

*pictures click here*

I woke up early and called CINDY my chinese bestfriend here.. and in a snap she went to pick me up at the station since I forgot how to ride the subway..we had lunch at FLUSHING called LEON for a dinner date (and he said YES and would even pay for it) then we went to Dunkin Springfileld to fetch Diana and visit Israel.. wah there are new D-Crew ..2 Filipino guy and a spanish guy.. Diana was telling me again that the otehr Filipino guy likes me.. (waaaaaah! he looks ok .. he looks like Jeremy my guy bestfriend in Cali) he was nic eto give me a cig for free.. *hihihi* the weather is like cold..then good thing we saw KEVIN on the streets and went to hangout at his place for awhile..then we fetched TIN at school and hitced a ride with JOE to FLUSHING again to meet LILY,DIANA and LEON...we had dinner at SENTOSA.. their indian pancake is a must try... we got liek 5 orders of that,, it was like a feast,, we had pork soup,chicken,fish,noodles,veggies.and prawns.. (man! we're like soooo hungry) ... LEON came late.. but all I can say is that HE is HOT!he drives a car right now.. treated me dinner..has muscles already... (ooops! wala eh TAKEN nako) ahahah... i don't think it's like gonna bloom or something,, yet I am happy that we reallya re great friends..we are so comfortable with eachother.. haaaaaaay!

more kwentos to come on the days to come...

2007-10-16T01:09:00.000-07:00

Sem-ender picks:

I feel like I just got out of prison.. finally 1st Sem is over.. and Sembreak starts now.. hehehhe!One thing that I sacrificed was to go shopping.. Spice up and glam up wheneveD I go out..efinitely the dry-bunned hair has to go so I headed for my life-awaiting rebond day @ Tony and Jackie by JAY offcourse.. my beb ayeen did liked him too.. he is so-funny! serious type yet amazing!! For the days to come it'll be shopping escapade.. and a trip to NY to see my fam is worth the wait! too bad imma have to miss sweetie for a month..(don't worry a secret getaway b4 I leave is scheduled for u).. wah it feels like summer time due to the hot weather all day! can't wait to hit the beach *winks*

2007-09-09T04:11:00.000-07:00

on Spending a late Sunday afternoon:

Twas so hot inside my apt. @ 2pm.. (which is the time i woke up .. hahah.. lashing nanaman kagabe eh?) I was planning to talk about what happened to our inuman last nyt yet.. wag nalang kase I myself was drunken wasted! so I myt misinterpret some stuff! (iwas chismis) pero grabe UMAK people really knows how to party!

ohwel! here I am at Bonifacio High Street taking advantage of the free wifi access ahahah! bute nalang full power ang a/c nila kase mababaliw na tlga ako sa inet..hay! in times like this I miss my friends and my family..my Sundays will never be the same like before wherein you have home-cooked lunch . Celebrate mass. Dine out.. with the family..nGrowing up na kase ako.. well I'm not getting any younger..have to be independent and be strong for myself.. (nax!)

wah it's 7:30 na uwe nako.. have to wake up by 5am pa... Back to school!

love yah all.. God Bless!

2007-08-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

On a NO CLASSES week:

Thanks to the typhoon.. it gave me a week off from school and spend time with my friends. my apt.my sister.myself..

Nothing beats the good old Sherwood inuman... was able to see the guys again..as usual beer was pouring and it's all about the good times (pare!) ahahaha!

Went to AZTA salon to accompany my sister get her hair rebonded... well she had to bribe me with a foot spa.hand spa.mani-pedi ... it was such a relaxing moment and a glammed up nails afterwards.. thanks for the treat sis!

Having my cousin bless stay over the weekend means "takas moments" .. it was a Sunday filled with "out of the blue ideas".. 1st we went to Tony and Jackie (The Best Korean Hairstylist) at first we were hesitant to go inside.. yet they were very accommodating...not much talk though yet their smiles were heartfelt.. a different set of hairstylist excites the both of us..wondering what would our cut be.. (hopefully nothing too anime) ..and so as i sat on my chair this korean guy went up to check my hair.. and i can't help but smile (blush) coz in some ways he looked like LEON (my Chinese crushie in NY) well we had some difficulty on how I want my cut to be coz it seems like he doesn't wanna give me a side bangs.. ( but then he gave in after i tell him that I wanna hide my forehead..ahahha) .. I was observing him handle his scissors man was I amazed.. it reminded me of the cowboy bandits grabbing their guns from their waist like they have to spin it on their fingers first then grasp the gun then shoots! (ahahah! yet he was so clumsy with the hair clips, he keeps on throwing them on the floor) what a funny experience?! a lot of new stuff to look out when you're there (try it!) oh look for JAY! *smiles* and I suggest you make friends with THE MANAGER too.. he's pretty funny aswell! I liked my cut .. they even ironed it for a better exit..

going home at 10p, doesn't feels right so off we go to THE BLOCK to watch A Love Story.. ahaha! we were right on time for the last full show.. ok I won't spoil some of you who haven't watched it.. yet it is a MUST SEE ..don't forget to bring your hubbies or bf's ok!? it might change your relationship into a more loving.trusty.respectfilled one!

going out from a cold movie house needed a bit warmth of Starbucks coffee.. another trip to congre , talk about my guy dilemmas..(what arelief!)

and for the finale! a glimpse of our guyfriends a lil chit-chat(thanks Sherwood guys for getting up from the bed at 1am) well the girls has to showcase their new look ryt?!

went home sleepy.. a lil chat and webcam escapade with tin before i hit the sack!!!

WHAT A WEEK! back to school,studying,and my kolokoy classmates.. ( i did miss u too!)

2007-07-30T02:01:00.000-07:00

on My D.I.Y projects:

Saw this very unique flower decoration online.. and i told myself i could have that for the apt. simple yet catchy!

Materials:
test tube
candle holder
flower

'So loving this layered mirrors.. I love the effect and I think with a help from a mighty bond this is done in less than 3 mins. cool ryt!

Materials:
8 4x4 square mirrors
mighty bond

This is what I have in mind for the upstairs.. a long mirror, a bench type coffee table, " the orchid plant", an artistic bowl.. very relaxing feel to the room.. a small fountain would complete the tranquil feel..

2007-07-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

on analyzing what happened those nights:

no words to express i just wanna sing my heart out..
listen to my thoughts....

2007-07-15T19:53:00.000-07:00

on MY 1st HOME VISIT:

4 days in the apartment was a mixture of experience..to keep me busy I always do the laundry (by hand) ,prepare instant food (since there's no burner yet), watch dvd's (since there's no cable yet), play PS2, listen to iPod playlist..I tried to entertain myself.. yet nothing beats getting visits from friends and a round of beer..*winks* thanks...

I said to myself on the first night of me sleeping there alone was.. "this is it!!! living the single - independent life"...i really got home sick one nyt coz there's no technology yet in the unit.. ahahah!!! since usual routine of mine entails weee hours in front of the laptop surfing -soundtripping-chatting...

I was really looking forward for Sunday afternoon - the time i get back to QC.. hehehe! (nakakamiss din pala ang Visayas Ave.) and since most of my friends are from here so hopefully i can see a couple of them before Wednesday (callling all my QC friends)

2007-07-08T18:31:00.000-07:00

on MOVING OUT to MOVING IN:

Finally I found a cute place for me to stay which is near my school and assigned hospital..a 40 sqm. unit with 1 bedroom,1 t/b, laundy area,kitchen,living area,mezzanine (bedroom loft). It's like a miniature house.. yet I'm up for the challenge to make it as a cozy, zen type -
bachelorette pad!

2007-07-03T20:33:00.000-07:00

on adding "How to walk in high heels" on my book shelf:

ok i admit sometimes i get tired reading my nursing books and i just wanna get in touch with other stuff that interest me; which is enjoying the present and being in the fashion scene.. Being a 22 year old nursing student is a sacrifice.. since most of my friends are working already-getting promotions-forming wrinkles due to work stress-going out as yuppies.. and here i am living the student life..not really practicing being responsible and being mature..

as how my life has been i need a HUGE thing right in front of me before i make the TURNING POINT.. well hopefully the book could guide me on this journey in the most lady-like way..

2007-06-26T09:06:00.000-07:00

on My Shopping Plea:

i adore girly outfits..i guess i am back to basics..more of plain and stripes..gotta love pinis, mini pockets, slip ons and ballet flats..SALE SALE SALE.. shopping alert for everyone!

images from:oldnavy.com,topshop.com,ae.com,ninewest.com,payless.com

2007-06-24T18:15:00.000-07:00

on Catching Up:

life has been passing by like a blink of an eye! the next morning i wake up i realize i missed a party lastnyt coz i got knockdown and fell asleep..my apologies guys!

+Events to catch up on+

JP's 23rd birthday party last June 23
Alchemy night with Bezy Joy last June 23
Hangout with my girls Neomi and Kat lastnyt June 24
My cuz birthday June 25
Des' welcome home party tonyt June 25

+People to go out with soon+

Beb Ayeen
Bhogs
Momi Gen and
the rest of sbux people
my cuz Bless
Bezy Joy
Bez Jayps
South people
CSB gang

i miss you all so much!
the bondings. kwentuhan.asaran.inuman.food trippings!!!
take care all the time ayt!
Love Yah!

2007-06-21T16:44:00.000-07:00

on my 1st OR encounter:

Watching Grey's Anatomy surgery episode sometimes can become so intense and unexpected cases.. We had a great experience yesterday..we viewed and assisted 2 cases a CS with ovarian cyst and a Hydrocephalic case..

The preparation before starting the operation can be so tedious ..counting..closed gloving..STERILITY is implemented.. more cases later!!!

follow up pics:

2007-06-09T22:47:00.000-07:00

on INTERIOR STYLES from my fave shops:

What i love about urbanoutfitters and anthropologie is that they are not limited to clothing and shoes..they also carry their styles up to your home interiors..here's what i come up with!!! hopefully there'll be a pad for me to put up these personalized bedroom theme..

Urbanoutfitters

color scheme: black,white,fuschia,brown,peach,light blue
accent pieces: angel wings holder,peace out figurine
glammed up: rug,chandelier,sequined curtains,wall mounted candles
seating: curved up chair, low floor seats

Anthropologie

color scheme: red,white,brown,yellow,green
ambiance: floral,beach,bright
mix and match: beddings,curtain,pillows
bold statement: asian seating, red round clock
branching out: end table,mirror,photo frame

2007-06-06T21:09:00.000-07:00

on my MOM's birthday greetings{June 8}:

2007-06-06T16:20:00.000-07:00

on LOVE quotes piled up on my phone inbox:
this goes out to my friends who seemed to feel a little confused,hurt,fallen out of love...

"One cannot question the existence of feelings, they are there, raw and undeniable.But one can choose to not nurture what is felt. Yet, no matter what they say, what has been felt will always be more honest than what was choosen. Hence, true realities are not built by the mind but by the heart"

"Being friends with someone you'd rather be in love with is like being invited on the rooftop to look at the stars..and only to look at the stars!"

"sometimes it's not love.. sometimes, you've just become so attached that you've developed a need for that person.. just a need..not love..but you're too scared to admit it, even to yourself..coz you know that if you do , you might lose the only person that actually gives a d*mn"

"People get hurt with love because they try to deny its existence or its abscence.. Don't make things complicated for it is hard to find an answer.. If you love each other build up a relationship where in you'll both find true happiness. If you know love has faded just let go and don't dream as if there is still chance for love to come back. Because the more you deny what's inside your heart the more pain you are trying to catch"

"Isn't it sad when you have so much love in your heart but you cannot let it grow and you're so damn scared to show it because of 1 reason....YOU'RE FRIENDS!"

"Never try to change your loved one to suit your own taste.It defeats the purpose of falling in love with who she really is; After being with eachother for so long , never forget the little things that made you fall inlove with her more; too much jealousy can kill but a little of it is healthy besides it's nic eto know that your loved one fears of loosing you; small random acts of sweetness have guaranteed tremendous effects; say i love you because you mean it not because you have to."

"It was fun chasing an illusion. it gave me a reason to be happy even if it wasn't real.but any chase surely has to end. Im just disappointed cause when it did end i was leftwith nothing but a memory of something that never existed"

"I learn to love someone with all my life.. but there came a point when i get tired not of loving but sacrificing all that i have.. then a thought came to mind.. i have given everything but have received nothing but pain and tears in return .. is this enough to prove that i really love the person? or is it a sign telling me to stop sacrificing and learn to love myself a little more."

2007-06-04T09:27:00.000-07:00

on my online message board:

"..just leave a message and i'll get back to you..*beeep*"

2007-06-03T17:14:00.000-07:00

on RAINY SEASON MUST-HAVES:

photo credits: urbanoutfitters.com,delias.com,topshop.com,shopintuition.com

2007-05-24T16:26:00.000-07:00

on STUFF i MiSS:

i miss my bestfriends : Ayeen,JP,Bogs,Kaye - these are the people who are so dear to me yet it's been a long time since we last saw eachother.. well hopefully before June classes starts we'll have time to catch up and have fun!
i miss shopping: i am celibate from shopping for a month. haven't bought nething new . and now my wishlist is so long already.. all i need is my kaching-kaching.. gonna get ready for end of summer sale!! hihihihi
i miss SUMMER '07: literally among my friends i am the only "winter snow" color.. i haven't gone to any beach nor pool this summer?! it really sucks ..what a sacrifice!!! *poor me*
i miss my glam dresses,shoes,axes: going to school 7 days a week means - fashion = SCRUBS..the scrubbish look "bunned hair,scrubs,white rubbershoes,big bag" ... not fashionable at all.. * i wish we'll have a washday and can wear anything we want*
i miss Mr.Summer Lovin' : this i say tops the list.. from the past i really hit the love shack during summer yet my mojo isn't on the move right now.. not a single flingaling,crushicrush,boylalu! *wanted:a date* - wish i have the time for this!*nyorks*
i miss myself: i may not have time to socialize with my friends lately [which i am trully sorry for my pagkukulang -'ope you guys understand my pitifull situation] also i have no time to fix myself - i am a trash.. i go to school with my wet ponied hair,baby cologne,unplucked eyebrows,baby powdered face - I am a total disaster!!! i definitely need a make-over!!!

2 days more and imma catch up on everything! i PROMISE!!!

2007-05-23T17:48:00.000-07:00

on LOVING DRESSES:
*despite my knee accident .. still diggin' dresses as my regular outfit*

pics from oldnavy.com and urbanoutfitters.com
for local finds of similar dresses check artworks store,MNLW,hollywoodfever.multiply.com

2007-05-20T17:27:00.000-07:00

on being a nurse due to my fashion accident:

hu hu hu! I had an accident last night I tripped in the stairs and injured my knee.. [don't worry 3-steps stairs lang naman sha] I don't know if where my mind is when that happened..basta nalang i fell and felt pain in my knee.. nakuha kopa mag yosi on the side..coz i thought my sister will be out of the resto na din pero i was wrong i looked inside from the window sitting pretty pa sha while talking with my mom over the phone.. ..so i went to the car..ayun dumudugo na pla yung tuhod ko..oh the worst part I'm wearing a dress last nyt! bute nalang no one saw what happened.. aside from the guard na may kachikahan sa phone na naka headset pa..[nakakaloko tlga mga naka headset akala ko ako kausap d pala] hmm being a student nurse edi todo praning ako i immediately grabbed my chd bag..got my alcohol,betadine,hydrogen peroxide,gauze,micropore,scissors .. [ahahah kala mo major surgery eh]

anyways.. I know i am over-acting yet it's been a long time since I bruised myself.. and that's when my mom is still here and would clean it for me.. YET since BIG GIRL NA SI RIAN.. ako nalang nagclean.. and i still have my strawberry shortcake bandage..[hehehe]

masaya nako coz so far d na sha sore.. wag lang tlga sha mag scar!!! :(

2007-05-16T18:12:00.000-07:00

on dealing with "FAKE FRIENDS":

How pathetic a person can be when she has everything in her life except for true friends.. she might be a pretty face, party freak, freakin rich girl yet with a "SOCIAL CLIMBER" and "BACKSTABBER" attitude that ain't gonna gain her true friends..

Didn't give much attention to her awfull attitude before.. like how she transformed into this ugly duckling into a swan .. well a fake one.. coz a swan can be noticeably pretty without her bragging about it.. It just gets into my nerves when people became arrogant...and talk shit all the time once they are classified into the upper-class of society.. like "ohh i bought this watch for 5k yet not a time that she wore it"... or "i have tons of guys who studies in this school who owns a ferrari..blah blah blah"... well those i can tolerate [baka ksp lang] but then hearing something negative about me coming from her stupid mouth is something I can't pass... when we are together she'll be a goody-goody concerned friend.. yet once I turn my back she'll be this evil b*tch and starts talking sh*t about me.. How insane can she be ryt? She gain her happiness trying to be cool, longing to be on the A-list, making lies just to make her popular, putting her friends down, trying to fit in, bragging about her stuff,spreading rumors about other friends, giving comments without even caring if someone will get hurt... [girl' wake up!you're not fun anymore!]

Friendship is not about competition -
it's not about having more but it's all about sharing,

it's not all about the parties and booze -it's all about the presence of a friend in times when you're so low..

it's not on the quantity of events you've been together - it's more of the quality time you spend with eachother...

it's not all about the captured moments - it's all about the good memories...

it's not how expensive you're gifts are - it's all about the purest thought of appreciation

it's not all about your glits and glam - others have a life too, and that ain't include you...

I won't mention who u are? coz I'm not like you..
I just wanna get it out of my chest...not even expecting for an apology...
GET A LIFE!!! WE ALL KNOW YOUR MISHAPS IN LIFE - HOW YOU BECAME WHAT YOU ARE RIGHT NOW - WE KNOW THAT YOU'RE A SCAM and ALL YOUR LIFE IS BASED ON LYING.. so don't expect us to be TRUE to you coz you made us react like this , and so be it!

2007-05-14T19:25:00.000-07:00

on Me getting back on my blog:

Whoah! last entry was May 6..and it's May 15 already ..a week of not blogging..how pathetic.. ohwell literally it's HELL week for me.. being a Resident Student [def. a nursing student who's been staying in school for 7days a week, no restday at all] yet i still manage to go out with friends after a 5-9pm class and a 7am class the next day.. Time is so precious to say NO to friends..

I was so delighted when they announced that there will be no classes last Sunday.. THANK GOD! a 2 day off from school is a blessing..so I didn't waste the time I have so last SATURDAY texted my hs friends for some booze... not knowing that there'll be a liquor ban by 12mn.. we got @ Quatro around 1030.. an hour left so without looking at the menu we immediately ordered a beer tower with grenadine syrup.. [ugh! people were staring at us coz were like only 2 ladies with this beer tower..i guess everyone was new in this bar coz everyone ordered for a mucho mug] ahahah! "still i declare that i ain't an alcoholic"

Sunday - out with my bestfriend..had dinner @ Napoli's Tomas Morato

Monday- Election day.. well i was experiencing anxiety attack coz it's the last day of no school.. so i warped by playing sims 2 from 11am-6pm [hehehhe.. my character now has a limo and now the vice president of the company.. and lives in a cruise ship ryt now] skiping lunch made me so hungry and i decided to treat my sis @ Sakae Suchi since it's been months that i am longing to try that resto... heheh! i just wanna amaze myself with the revolving food plates..[like the ones on jap movies] I'm definitely going back to that place!!!! yum yum food!
Then had coffee @ Xocolat... Mcdo drive thru for chicken nuggets.. hehehhehe! FOOD TRIP!

back to school later.. pray for me guys!!!

2007-05-06T04:40:00.000-07:00

on My Loneliest Day ;( :

It feels like eachday I have a gray cloud over me..
I never felt so alone til 2day!

How about studying all night for an exam then knowing that you've failed!
Starving yet there's no food to eat ,not even someone cared to share you some!
Inviting friends out - coz all you need is a friend who could cheer you up..
yet they pass on your invitation for some selfish reasons...
Knowing that you have tons of friends yet realizing that none of them will show up
in times when you need them the most...
Felling exhausted and sick and not even getting any "are you ok?" from the people you expect to read your feelings without you telling them..
Going home by yourself riding a cab with no one caring if you'd be home safe!
Tears falling down your cheeks - coz all you can think of is your death day and
wonder if the people whom you've cared so much would even spare a minute to visit your wake...

I really do question my existence and use on other people's lives??! I wonder if I really am a part of their lives.. or just a person whom they know who would always be there on their side in times when they feel ALONE.. I never demand for something grand yet I just can't accept that I am not getting what I deserve...or this is all that I have to receive..?! *sighs*

I miss my family,my sister,my true friends and most especially God.
*crying*

2007-04-30T19:00:00.000-07:00

on a recap of my ANATOMY:

Studying Pathophysiology which they say as the abnormal physio ..I need to recall my Anatomy which is the normal physio and so as a VISUAL person I need all the illustrations and interactive tutorials for me to survive this course.

links: http://www.getbodysmart.com/

2007-04-30T17:50:00.000-07:00

on PATHOPHYSIOLOGY lectures of Dr.Pimintel & Dr.Panaligan:

For all my patho classmates.
These are downloadable powerpoint files on -

Anemia
CVD
CNS Alteration
Disease in Pleura
Cardivascular Infection
Hypertension
Pneumonia

link: http://cheryllterrado.multiply.com/journal

Imma try to compile everything..
I still do have other lectures on soft copy to be added..

HERE's the compiled version:
link: http://cherrilicious.multiply.com/journal/item/6

CNS Alterations
Cardiovascular Infection
Hypertension
Disease Encountered in Pleura
Cardiovascular disease
Wound Healing
Immunity
Pneumonia
Anemia
Arterial Blodd Gases
Infection
Stress Adaptation and Excercis

There will be a unit exam on Wednesday-May 2, 2007!!!
+aral ng mabuti+

2007-04-29T19:24:00.000-07:00

on my NECKLACE obsession:

The only thing that'll complete my outfit is having a neckpiece..
It's like my crowning glory..
i just love accessories!

[1]blue heart locket [2]black chain circles by ME
[3] teddy bear addiction [4] 3mp by Flatterbuy
[5] xmas gift from sis [6]pearl layer by FOREVER21
[7]Pink Strawberry by ALDO [8]Puffed Heart with tiny heart
and alot more...

2007-04-27T11:22:00.000-07:00

on letting go:

I am not the usual girl who would easily give up on good friendship with guys...but in his case.. i really don't wanna settle just being friends..so i guess i myt aswell step back for now and become a stranger then wait for the time to come when I am fully prepared to show how much i love him..

Friendster Horoscope for April 28, 2007
You've been tolerating a friend's detached behavior -- but recently, this behavior has become quite confusing (if not downright annoying). If it feels as though you are always the one making the phone calls, making the plans, and putting all the effort into maintaining the relationship, it may be time to take a step back. This friend may not be aware of how much work you're doing, and may come around if you take a stronger stance.

2007-04-25T17:59:00.000-07:00

on the bad effect of too much BLOGGING:

It all started last Sunday when I was having my 1pm-7pm MICROBIOLOGY class.. when I begin to feel nauseaotic ,dizzy, and having a terrible headache.. I thought twas all about the heat and the pollution outside Makati..I went home still having a headache..and then I soon found out that I have astigmatism on my left eye.. and so I got my prescription and have to wear glasses..and so this is another venture on my look..so off I grab my new set of eyes..
i mean eyewear!

man! I look dorky now..lol..
thanks to Citylimits that I got discounts @ George Optical..*kewlness*

2007-04-22T19:53:00.000-07:00

on Capturing the Scene: