.crazy hella week.

the week was filled with depression,confussion and exhaustion. . Sunday night was when i got a call from "sweetness" that he's not feeling well and he's going to the E.R. for consult. Surprisingly I was so freaking worried and was checking on him from time to time..(i can't even close my eyes because i was so bothered) ... and so i laylowed because I was afraid to accept that I do have deep feelings for him already (well not that I haven't shared it with others, but this seemed a lot way more than I expected) To my surprise he texted and told me that he'll be going to the clinic since he's been having fever for the past 3 days..to make the long story short..he had Dengue and got admitted. During his confinement i was giving my best effort on comforting him (kinapalan kona muka ko and still visit him everyday) Yun lang hinde ko alam if naapreciate ba nya or naiirita na sya saken (feeling girlfriend kase ako..haaay! ang hirap ng ganito..no commitment) hmmm.. I only have 2 weeks to see him..after that everything will be over. I don't think what we have is bound to last especially on long distance... He's just too numb and afraid to settle... (that's the hardest part that I need to deal with)

:(

.temptation.temptation.

I'm weak! I admit..hmm i guess being not exclusive with sweetness makes me more rebelious in some ways.. I get to hanged out with an old fling - surprisingly it was awesome.. compared to the last time we saw eachother..maybe it's because it's been a long time since we've seen eachother, get to bond with him selling burgers.. haaay! I can't explain it yet it felt good doing something special for him and got appreciated after.. I just can't help but *smile*

wah! I'm a crazy lil' single girl!!!

.simply special.

I am so bading right now. I think I just fall for my close guy friend from work. He does things na nakakaloka..like he extends his time to see me in the morning before I open the clinic.. (2x pa) Well im happy that we get to this level... It's not a bf/gf relationship that's entitled on exclusivity and restrictions. We're just happy that we have eachother - and that matters a lot to me..